since the day results were out
10 feb
i was so friggin sad
i juz registered
without giving much thought
without thinking abt the consequences

and it has been my stance all these while
nj nj nj nj nj nj nj
if not cj lor
i juz WANTED to get out of sa

but twas only 2 days b4 posting
that i decided sa over cj

im in cj

i regret it

i cant do anything

im dumb


my last day in sa
i was going home wif a fren by bus
he said to me
muz keep in contact
if u can
get me to play tennis wif u
i can perfect my shots
and u can train ur shots
but u are always not free
i'll make time for u
dun worry

i was deeply touched
once again

the other time was the last class gathering last year
i was on the train home wif a close fren
one stop b4 his stop
tt whole journey for tt one stop
we were both quiet
dead silent
i stared at the floor
he too
then when the train reached
he said what i wanted to say to him
exactly what i wanted to say
so i guess is see you next year
muz keep in contact
and i was friggin holding back tears
holding them back vehemently

on that bus ride home tt last day
i didnt haf to
pple do lie
i haf yet to see the truth

not everyone treasure frens as much as i do
not many pple noe why i do so too

this world is full of hypocrites
why am i spending my orientation 2 in cj