today quite happy
and also quite pissed
firstly
went to guitar class
teacher say course officially end next month
but we finish syllabus le
so i start new one
but fees same
following month then officially start
see how gd i am
and now muz take guitar exam
ARGHHHH
secondly
read this abstract
"hey darry.. wanted to apologise to you earlier but im afraid tt u wld still be angry with me..sorry for tearing up ur pack of cookies n oso sorry 4 throwin e money at u tt day.. i really apologise for my actions and really hope tt u will forgive me.. sorry..
i asked
wad or who was the prompt
in my bid to find out
what sparked off the apology
"prompt? myself.. i didnt apologise to u earlier cos i think tt u wld still be very angry with me sorry...
after reading all the above
doesnt one get the feel
its but rather well rehearsed
too well rehearsed for that matter
giving the feel
that it wld happen again
and tt it has happened but too many times b4
so much so hes soooo familiar wif the way things shd go
also
it gives the feel that
he wont change
he will still do such things
and i/other pple will get
such an apology
lets analyse in detail
u want to apologise... scared tt im angry... u made me angry... wads there to be scared off...
not only was the actions part of the pissification... how abt ur words... ur tone... ur expressions...
its too easy to apologise doesnt it... tts the feeling its giving me... do something that hurts other people... wait a few days... until someone else say oh darryls agry wif u... then *snap and send the sms
how come u find urself sorry now... but not when u were throwing ur cash like spitting saliva???
then... muz be someone tell u... or u read my blog or something... well i noe i can be mean and take ur whole family to scold... it jus doesnt sound sincere... why apologise for throwing money at me... when u cld blatantly do so tt time and not feel tt it was wrong...
times the best healer they say
but we all die in time to come
and the "teacher" saga
never ends it seems
came to class
gif out result slip
gif out in the buay song attitude
take and slam on table
then say
u shd be happy
its all ur own efforts
sounds like a compliment
but wasnt meant to be so
then later scold scold scold
for wad???
we didnt do anything criminal
we didnt eat too much
we didnt slack so much
we didnt fuck someone
we didnt scold u
we didnt crave over nicols crumbler or zzys billas
we didnt want them either
nor did we not want to say sorry IF we did wrong
NONE
absolutely none of the 7 deadly sins
why scold us???
bcos u think we not appreciative of u enuff???
fuck the fuck off lar
so wad abt the inspiring teachers awards?
its a fluke
its by hak boon
wadya expect
its only plutonium for u
to throw atomic bombs at us
doesnt serve any other purpose
say u hate us did u not?
why put our class pic on ur whiteboard at ur table?
not taking it down
and beheading each and everyone of us
say ur other students haf bigger hearts?
say u didnt want us to spoil ur tday?
say if we gracious enuff we wont?
say tt we werent even human b4 didnt u?
so deem it ur tday be spoilt
well as for wadever else u scolded
i wasnt really listening
cos im kinda like used to u pmsing for no bloody fuck
menopausal i keep telling meself
and yeah
im leaving chs soon
who cares
SURE
FINE
who cares
u still haf ur decades of students who MAY care
u still haf ur guang hong
u still haf alice and mel
why care abt us
well then
dun at all
but at least when ur dying
take a mirror and look at urself
and die in peace
well i be buying other prezzies for my teachers
those who are nicer
SOOO MUCH NICER