kinda complicated

LONG OVERDUE

2009-05-13T04:20:00.001-07:00

sorry for this damn long lapse... my blog is now at

www.xanga.com/denodorite

random thoughts

2007-01-08T03:51:00.000-08:00

ooh so i have clocked in 73% in terms of attendance.
im so proud of myself.
its a distinction.

but i truly wonder why some people who went overseas havent had their names redmarked...

the holidays
days away from school
am i wrong to spend it the way i like

whats the use of getting us to confess our ponage
when what you'll get is 2/3 of the team flocking to you...

maybe maybe
as ive long hated the stifling beaurocracy
the plastic friendliness
the bitched up tyranny
i should just quit
since i do not need it to be inside my grad cert

or should i just endure 4 more months of such shit
having endured 1 yr of it already
it was a thorough mistake to have joined it in the first place

well at least im one of the more regular members
congrats to me!!!

last post of 06

2006-12-31T03:23:00.000-08:00

ok forget abt the abs i mentioned
been absolutely so busy doing everything else except what is "right"

well so i came back from langkawi and it was fun
then i flew off almost immediately to japan
and it was more fun

bought alot of things
but alot not for me
and er yeea its really not what people think it is
the stuff there arent really that expensive
but the other stuff people dun find expensive are on the contrary expensive
i wonder why the luis vuitton is a few hundreds cheaper than sg
i wonder why shoes are a few tens of bucks cheaper than sg
i wonder why a rock melon is a few tonnes of bucks more expensive than sg...
i wonder why japanese eat vinegar everyday and still so courteous
sg eat vinegar once and become damn rowdy le
the snow wasnt really fun cos the temperature wasnt cold enough

hot spring baths are fun
something different
bed hard to sleep
damn hard

puffer fish damn nice
but its the kind that one eats once in a long while
if eat everyday will die
fugu

kobe beef also damn nice
i for one cannot eat beef cos will diarrhea
but kobe beef i can eat all day de
literally melt in ur mouth
even though i took like one gigantic slab
but damn ex
kobe

and i shant eat seafood for the rest of the year...
ate alot of seafood steamboat there
shabu shabu

i love their rice
i love their miso soup
i love their miso ramen
i love their ice cream
i love their sweets
i love their milk
i love their mushrooms
i love their anime

but its that time of the year again
06 is ending
and 06 has seen me achieving nothing much
it was exactly what i had resolved at the end of the tiring 05
a look at this pass year

went to SAJC
made friends in PAE 06s26
received O levels results
a devastating 9 pts
resolved to come back from A levels with a "monster kill"
coined the term for the rush to the A levels
lock and load, aim and fire, destroy and overkill
went to CJ as a form of subtlety
need to rest and relax
need to recuperate for at least 1 yr
joined Volleyball
joined Pre U Sem
joined Tem Sem
finally switched clubs for my tkd
resolved to get my black belt b4 end of j2
joined Salvation army PDP
finished off with the fucked up pw
promoted to j2
t19 chalet
2703 chalet
worked as a waiter
worked as flyer distributer
langkawi camp
japan trip
2007

this year
this year...
it will be serious time
i guess i have hibernated enough
its time
and so have i coined another term
skin the lines
lines depict everything
the limits to which one can reach
the borders of which one can cross
the path one takes
the effects of ones choice
i have decided
all such lines
i am gonna erase them
i am gonna destroy them
i am gonna obliterate them
and i am gonna be merciless
relentless
heartless
i shall skin them like they dont deserve to be in my way
and this is what i will do
i will set about achieving
and being all that i never was

the last post of 2006
enjoy
world peace and save the whales =))

2006-12-07T02:09:00.000-08:00

whee im getting richer by the day
yeea been working my whole holidays
no life all that
but i dun care
im gearing up for next yr
and i guess im rather serious abt next yr
remember last yr....
well yeea another week of work and then its my real holidays le
a trip to langkawi and japan
whee

but its kinda sad that i left my brain here and there
its like work has become part of my life that
i dunno
i keep missing my trainings and my lessons...
i skipped a few here and there... but i really dunno...
pay money le... never go...
if only im more mindful...
i seriously wonder how im gonna go for my exams/grading/tests next yr

bwahaha guess ill manage without my life

good friends dont have to be together all the time
as long as the bond is there, its enough

2006-11-25T09:44:00.000-08:00

work has been great the pass few many days

have to admit i was damn lucky to be buddied with a zai malay kia
learnt alot from him
or rather im the type that when i wanna learn
i will go all out to learn everything
also bcos tt night tt marno made the 2nd timers handle 2 tables

then blah blah blah
so many nights passed
everynight is the same old thing
dirty plates and bowls and EVERYTHING
yes it is a 5 STAR HOTEL
but behind the scenes
everything is SO FRIGGIN DIRTY
first few days see dirty de
get disgusted and put one side
now used to it le
juz take and gif to guests
and yeea
stealing food and drinks damn fun
first few times damn shuang
after awhile
the sharksfin tastes stale
the abalone damn boring
wonder why the chef dun cook different things each night...

well yeea learnt the uplift, the balance, the etiquettish way of serving guests
deboning fish blah blah blah
and the only setback abt this work environment
PAY SUCKS
90% of coworkers are CHINA FAGS
seriously i went there on my first day with an open mind
but each day my dislike
my disgust
my disdain
my disapproval
of them juz increases
a good day is one where there is NO CHINA FAG stationed ard u
or with you
AND
no china GUEST
cos seriously
their attitude
their mental capacity
their intelligence
their every single shitty aspect la
everything is juz totally fucked up shitty

but nowadays i been having problems with the guests
every nigth damn suay de
always got damn funny ji siao siao guests
tt night the kitchen short of food
and the runners run halfway died never tell me
then another night got weird guests ask for their own mix of drinks
shandy= sprite + beer
irritating la juz make me lag behind the course nia

well quite sad to see my classmates who jio me there all stop working
or working elsewhere
i actually planned to study and train hard this hols
but i guess im earning a living instead

argh my back hurts

ABS

2006-11-13T07:16:00.000-08:00

2 things

one is tt im finally decided tt im weak and im gonna work on my fitness and health. hence getting the abs and all.

secondly is the kind of things im having to put up with these few days

which is

Absolutely Bimbotic Sayings

firstly was the PW oral presentations
i must say that bcos of the damn low standard of other groups
i superimpressed the judges
i seriously have never thought in my wildest dreams how some groups can actually come out with super STUPID ideas la...
some abstracts

earth has limited resources and also neuclear waste is harmful for the environment.
after using raw uranium to create neuclear power, harmful plutonium is left behind
we should recycle the plutonium to generate more neuclear power instead of storing them away that may harm the environment and be potential threat for targets of terrorism

sounds nice but who in the blue hell knows how to recycle plutonium... what a dumbass shit he is la... how does one possibly recycle plutonium la...

and got one more

with the incoming IR being built, we suggest building an extended MRT line connecting Changi Airport and SENTOSA and MARINA BAY. not only that, the MRT line will be built on the sea so tourists who come from overseas can straight away take the scenic MRT to the IR. the mrt will be AUTOMATED and it should cost abt 4.4 BILLION to build. more tourists will come and more money will be generated by the tourism industry.

its like WOW the reasons they give for their crap ideas are superb la!!! like fucking hell what if the automated train suddenly gets stuck at sea??? the passengers are supposed to take their friggin luggage jump off the train and swim to shore isit???

and one more

i wonder if u were irritated by that friggin stupid and dumb channel 5 advertisement with all the idol finalist obviously saying stuff they do not believe in. im sure its an insult to their intelligence to say such dumb stuff la!!!

like what to have a slim figure share ur food with the hungry... like what the hell if u wanna be slim by not eating juz dun fucking eat la dun buy any food as well can save money some more

we have 2 hands. one for helping ourselves one for helping others. SOUNDS WRONG ANYONE??? its like damn gay la

to have smooth hair let a child run thru it with his fingers. like what makes you think children have clean hands. for gods sake have u seen the little children of singapore???

to have poise walk with the thought u never walk alone. whoever says poise comes from that??? im sure tyra banks will laugh at you and give u a free demo of how a pro walks

there are even more stupid de la

and watch this space for more!!! when im done with my TIME magazine i will have my TIME of the YEAR ABS to showcase!!!

2006-11-02T06:44:00.000-08:00

ooh...
went chinatown today
very nostalgic

and need i say???

the popular is DA BEST

also the movie interpretation of death note sucks...
to think i chased death note for 2 over yrs for tt...

misprison in the highest degree

2006-10-20T09:31:00.000-07:00

how extra can an extra be

who did this qn?
me
extra
at least got extra marks than you right
@#$%^&#$%^@$#%%^^^

im not the obstreperous and gaudy type that goes around flaunting my marks as much as u do your money and your attitude befitting of rich spoilt brats.

so all's fair in love and war
why then cry a river about the dirtiness of the fight
and try to be the triple pillar of the earth for justice
engaging in a barbarous brawl with you will only waste my time
my little of my wit is a good mouthful for you
but its good if you wanna be my foe
for tis the better for my foes and the worse for my friends
for my friends praise me and make an ass of me
but my foes tell me plainly that i am an ass
so that by you
i profit in the knowledge of myself
and by my friends i am abused
the worse for my friends and the better for my foes

be that as it may
it is still misprison in the highest degree
cucullus non facit monachum
the cowl does not make the monk

Agonizing nostalgia

2006-10-16T08:03:00.000-07:00

i received a letter today
its about THE chess event in singapore
thinking about it
i really do enjoy going for chess competitions
i really do
but i stopped
i stopped playing chess altogether
it doesnt mean much to me
its fine if i do not go
its not as if i have to defend my title or something
so its not that hard
but deep inside me
theres this agonizing want
this vehement want to go for it
and i really am not in the right frame of mind to decide anything now

people like me like books
i love books
its nice to read
appreciate enjoy and contemplate
but i have not read in a long time
a scaringly long time
i used to be able to read a novel in 3 days
and its been years since i have read one
and that irking feeling is back again
i
i saw this book
as it is it is a book
a bunch of printed paper bound together
i see it everyday
at first there is no feeling for it
then
i dont know
is it this damned desire again
or is it my heart just forcing myself to want it
i know i dont feel like i need that book
nor if i want that book
but something inside wants me to have that book
and i dont even know its title

so much for a bookworm

2006-10-14T10:00:00.000-07:00

ok heres my plan for the hols

alot of reading
i have alot of reading to catch up on
alot of books piling and collecting dust

alot of training
im gonna be a supermodel material

and TOTALLY no studying
and whatever function i have'
i wont be kachiaoed by any schoolular commitment
cos they all will be officially over by nov

and i totally miss my frens at sa
i superbly miss sa for fun
cj is damn boring
coupled with the tyrannical couple in vball
im so gonna gloat at them lose the nationals next year

and the open house today was damn bitchy
i was practically telling everyone whom i noe to go home
haha
yeea
true la
whoever who wans to come to cj is totally stupid
they shd juz go home

and lao shi stay lame forever

2006-10-10T23:29:00.000-07:00

maybe it aint such a good idea putting my blog add on my cca blog... but well doesnt really matter... what is being said here are MY thoughts and feelings... they arent subjected to any others opinions NOR are they restrained by ANY boundary.

recently i was thinking... theres this FAT mp of kebun bahru... and well LEADERS are supposed to LEAD BY EXAMPLE right??? wonder if he exercises at least 3 times a week...

Hitler has been a super duper tyrant of the WWII... well what we always get is him torturing the jews and trying to purify germany... wonder if he gave much priviledge to those who are pure...

Qin Shi Huang a superb ruler cum ultra tyrant of china back then... he does things with finality... totally no democracy... but he managed to bring china to a totally whole new level... wonder if people actually liked him...

i wonder what type of leaders we will encounter in our lives... but i only hope for those who are able to LEAD by EXAMPLE, DEMOCRATIC, the same as when they are in person and when they are in power, EFFICIENT methods of doing things...

on another note
today yeea we got back our results
hows BB BBC for u???
and i hope for a D for lit...
depressed i am that i have to abandon all hopes for h3 maths...
and as always i have been consistent in my languages
this shows that i am competent BUT
not diligent or hardworking etc...

to top off the depression and despondancy
my pw IS as always having PROBLEMS...
and i got some vball thingy in the afternoon...
which i had to not go cos of the damn PW...
my my dance...
can u immagine...
forced to do mass dance...
i truly wonder if we ever get time off on open house...
if i have to be there whole day i will slip off halfway
and we owe some bitch 39 grandstands
a grandstand is climbing up and down of a 2 storey flight of stairs whos individual stairs themselves are about twice or thrice the height of normal individual stairs
WHICH OF TOTALLY NO FAULT OF MINE
ta bai zun si ani quan la...
always suddenly bo tai bo zi need to physically torment ourselves until someone suang then can...

silver

slowly, silently, now the moon
walks the night in her silver shoon;
this way, and that, she peers, and sees
silver fruit upon silver trees;
one by one the casements catch
her beams beneath the silvery thatch;
couched in his kennel, like a log,
with paws of silver sleeps the dog;
from their shadowy cote the white breast peep
of doves in silver-feathered sleep;
a harvest mouse goes scampering by,
with claws of silver and a silver eye;
and moveless fish in the water gleam,
by silver reeds in a silver stream.

sometimes we are just like the silver moon
beautiful in our own way
yet no one notices
nor do they care
hard as we try
to gain acceptance
they still dont
sad isnt it...

poems

2006-09-30T03:05:00.000-07:00

heres a bunch of poems i wrote over the pass few weeks
and yeea more to come

Georgie Porgie pudding and pie
kissed the girls and made them cry
And when the boys came out to play
he kissed them too cos he was gay

Little gay shiping
sat in the bedding
eating his bareback pie
He stuck in his thumb
and pulled out a plum
and said "what a good boy am i!"

Rainy dream

The grass is singing
ready to shine
The buds are rip'ning
ready to bloom
The frogs are belching
ready to mate
The snails are wailing
ready to feed
But i am sleeping
ready to dream.

2006-09-22T06:46:00.001-07:00

hi long time no blog

been busy for promos la
REALLY
SERIOUS
ITS TRUE
OEI
IM TELLING THE TRUTH

yeeea yeeea u get it
WHATEVER

right
this year
not so exciting
next year
its more goddamn fun
whee
will be taking a few important exams tt im like sooooooooooooooooooo looking forward to
be getting a h3, black belt, a grade 8, a goldstar, a crystal, a diamond, a sapphire, blah blah blah

and i really hope cj will be a nicer place to be in

2006-09-22T06:46:00.000-07:00

2006-09-09T07:06:00.000-07:00

you might find it funny but i was really and AM really really pissed today

what happened was the same routine. me leaving for my guitar lessons on a nice saturday afternoon. on the mrt i boarded.

but b4 that, its the normal wait for 7 minutes the moment u missed the train. fine wait lor. used to it le. but as the train went along, it picked up alot of people. AND I DO FRIGGIN MEAN ALOT OF PEOPLE. and best part, these alot of people arent locals. its like friggin alot of foreigners can. and from all over the world some more. its like so friggin disgusting la.

and we were like squashed to friggin fuck. and i dunno why i fucking brought along my guitar of all days to bring along... its like yeah i noe its the IMF week... so whys the fucking mrt still so crowded... why cant the bloody smrt juz fucking increase the frequency of the trains... dunno what the new transport minister doing... speaking of which... u remember the issue of the mrt and the bus cancelation... where pple had to waste more time taking mrt??? the MOT actually said the money spent by the gov had to be prioritised over the convenience of commuters like u and i... he said something like gov spent money building it so if its not used... then money wasted... why cant he juz admit tt he made a mistake in building it instead of making another mistake to cover up for his first mistake... so fucked up la... anyway its over... yeah back to the mrt

and the more disgusting stuff were foreigners bringing their dirty habits and dirty cultures into our mrt... can eat and drink inside some more la... its like so friggin crowded liao still dare to eat hotdog bun with so much chilli sauce on train la... its like what if spill onto me... omg... i fucking hate them la... again the smrt and transport ministry shd post signs with foreign languages saying tt no food or drink on train... and no one catch him... even though got police and mrt pple walking abt... which is FRIGGIN UNFAIR ... cause tt time i ate muah chee and kena caught... bloody fuck... and i was being like extra careful some more la... i take plastic bag prevent peanuts drop on floor la...

then never mind... after i reached ps... which i had to like almost take my guitar and whack my way out... foreigners really dunno how to GIVE WAY TO ALIGHTING PASSENGERS BEFORE BOARDING... and they bloody fuckingisheously juz squeeze inside even though the trains full...

ok at ps... one stupid german sausage... i dunno why i had to somehow be there and understand what he said...

oh so many people from all over the world... singapore is really a multi racial country as the brochures said... and i was like fucking hell... its because of u foreign vermins sneaking into singapore thats why we are so MULTI RACIAL... and i still dunno why political pple call them foreign talent... (still angry over the fact that a china scholar stole my first in level position years ago)

then got one more idiot... this time a chinese national. there was this chinese family and this little girl said

oh actually singapore is so small ar. 4 million people but u see so crowded. then i was so about to twist her neck off la... its like yeah its crowded enough and still need to accomodate all the infections that are coming in. obviously its bcos of all these foreign materials coming to singapore thats why we are so friggin crowded la...

its like quite scary la... got terrorist look allikes one la... got pple take banners walk the streets also la... i felt like taking one and walk with them lor...but mine will say WORLD PEACE AND SAVE THE WHALES!!

some pple also one kind one... when got guests come then start to decorate their lawns... its like... if u take a walk down an orchard... you'll realise that there are alot of flowers and trees that have magically sprouted over the weeks... gives an impression that spring is here!!!

pays off

2006-09-05T07:30:00.000-07:00

today one of my NT frens came up to me and said she did very well for her chinese exam for the first time. and thanked me for helping out wif her. which was quite ironic because my chinese is NOTORIOUSLY BAD but at least i managed to inspire her to study and bcos she did, she did well. woohoo. argh the feeling was great. i hope the rest of my NT/A frens also are inspired by chinese professor Kah Ming to do well in all their exams. and i shant compare wif the OTHERiS who are helping out bcos of coughcipcoughourscough.

then later during the day, the coordinator told me the children enjoy my company and appreciate my presence, which hasnt been seen since dunno when, yeah i noe cos i have been with them long enuff to witness pple come and go.

its quite a nice feeling and i dun get it too often, that im told im appreciated. makes me feel that what im doing is worth it, which originally was meant to clock 20 hrs but im doing more than that and i wont stop till i have sent this batch of kids off. this is called meaningful CIP, which during class discussions i have stressed and obviously the toots in my class can never understand, as compared to those where u touch and go, get the hours and run kinda cip. might as well dun do. waste time.

SEE PROFESSOR KAH MING HAS A HEART!!!

being CORNY is wrong

2006-09-03T07:03:00.000-07:00

i dunno whats up with pple nowadays... what was meant as HARMLESS and CLEAN JOKES can turn out bad... i mean... i was watching TV and i heard lotsa COLD jokes and i to i would juz spread the JOY of UTTERed NONSENSE... but it turned out to be a COLD war instead...

its like i was spouting persistantly non political and totally nonsensical and non-sensible stuff and pple can turn it into something bad...

things like

if an ARCTICAN banana and a SAHARAN banana were to compete in the ARMY HALF MARATHON at sheares bridge, who wld win???

ans: none. bananas dun grow in the arctic nor the sahara.

suppose they did leh??? who would win???

ans: the arctican one. he felt soon felt hot and decided to strip in front of the saharan banana. HAHA u noe... step on banana skin... fall down... piak... get it??? get it???

and the real CORNY one:

why should you never stuff a corn into DARRYL?

bcos DARRYL is so hot, the corn will become popcorn!?! haha

once again i reiterate. i meant the jokes as clean harmless fun and pple can infer tt im gay (stuff corn). like hell... stuff also can stuff many other places right??? like my mouth... and if ur dick is like a corn i wld not have it stuffed into my mouth!!! its like... whatever la... call me gay... whatever la... my stupid class is forever like tt. its always darryl the gay... whatever man. they just need someone, something to tease, to laff at, to make fun of, to insult, to hurt. i dun care. such PUERILE COLLEGIATED behaviour, i dont give a DAMN.

its like... i told a joke. its damn lame. yeah whatever. dun go on wif it and make everyone feel so pissed and so turned off.

its like... sometimes pple juz wanna be nice... let them!!! for fucks sake... there isnt enough GOOD pple or pple doing GOOD stuff nowadays... why dun u juz let them!!! its like... for the fun of it just let the good deed be done, enjoy it and DUN FUCKING LOOK A GIFT HORSE IN ITS MOUTH!!! damnit. whats with the world today...

2006-08-31T23:26:00.000-07:00

yeeah its been a while
my com was spoilt for over a week
and er... been really busy

well im sick of school
really am

teachers day was really nice
REALLY NICE

had 3 class celebrations
very nice
but i muz say a few things

frogs legs are nice
geylang night life is interesting
snakes arent cool
they're just shockingly funny
and i miss playing wif my cat high mates

black my final destination

2006-08-13T09:14:00.000-07:00

how bimbotic can i get man... "wow... if it weren't for electricity... we'd watching tv with candles..." bleagh...

and er... well i got a huge surprise today... i went for training as usual... in my previous club i kept teaching the little kids... the white belts till abt green... damn sian... and here i saw the more senior ones lazing ard when i got there after the warm up which is damn bloody fucked up so i usually pon and i got them up and i taught them pattern. bwahahahahahah. ok bloody long lousy english here... like i care. then after teaching them pattern, sir was like, haf u learnt yours??? and i was like what mine??? i tot this is mine???(refering to the brown belt which i juz taught) and he was like "no im toking abt black tip." and i was like huh i tot i fail??? who say u fail??? i never tell u u fail what... and i was like wtf YAY 8 patterns 3 rounds of pro sparing so what??? no kick!!!

black
the final destination
so im going for it after all
whee

yeah ok mugging mugging mugging
vballing vballing vballing
sleeping sleeping sleeping
au ye ing au ye ing au ye ing

well glad its back to the old times =$
only cj's coffee sucks bleaxxxx

watch out for TEACHERS DAY

2006-08-05T08:50:00.000-07:00

im really himbotic

damn

shd study more

make my brain more active

then not so stupid le

MILUBING ROCKS

i juz love their band name

it puns on so many things

hence their meaningful band

and they deserve to win!!!

2006-08-04T09:42:00.000-07:00

its one of those nights again where i cant sleep at all

my health is taking its toll...

im getting those sickly feelings damn easily nowadays...

juz came back from rapture

really misss sa

but i dun belong there

training is getting irritating

i hate sji faggorts

once for nothing we were made to run 5 rounds

another time we did 40 push ups

today we did 120 in a row

if they fucking hell wanna play the fool and are fucking totally unserious abt training

they can fucking hell fuck off

we dun need such fuckers in our fucking team

im like getting bruises here and there

and my body aches all the time now

and i need to study

so it doesnt help at all

think i finally found my momentum to study

but pw is draining my resources...

i hope i will blog differently soon

2006-07-30T09:34:00.000-07:00

well its nice to read abt everyone getting on with life
finding new partners
finding new interests
finding new strengths
new weaknesses
new everything

maybe i shd too

maybe that someone was right when we conversed in chinese
and he said its impossible

yeah time to move on
no point hanging on to the old life
no point reminiscing
no point missing it all the time
its timely to start
this year is like the record for the most number of deaths affecting me
all those important pple of the country
and those of my relations
but they're dead
and i aint

starting to live
why rely on others when you yourself can do a better job

wave and smile

2006-07-26T08:41:00.000-07:00

yeah 1 week since i last post

bwah so much has happened
yet nothing seemed to have happened

im still in my december holidays mentality
time hasnt seemed to pass
yet it has

i wonder when i will ever stop existing
and start LIVING

and ive been more and more bimbotic
even at tem sem i juz whalloped all the eclairs at the table... cleared 4 plates of it... and one aj guy behind juz shouted wtf and turned ard...

well at least once again get to meet old and real old frens... juz wave... smile... tts it

wonder what will happen if we ever meet again in the long future ahead... wave and smile???

totally fell asleep during the VERY IMPORTANT PEOPLE toks... and the media was filming... and i dun gif a shit... who ask them to keep giving politically correct speeches... hear until sian le...

and some of them cant speak proper english

twenty
TWENNY

issue
ISSEEEEEUUUUU

situation
SIT TWO ATION

score well for SATs
score well for sex

pw is my fault, blame me if you want

oh we spend money build the line... we cant have our money go to waste... yeah right cost over people la... dun wan ur money go to waste so make policies at the expense of pple la... ok whatever

oh national service is a national need... we dun have a national need for females to be nurses or kindergarten teachers yet

sorry cant defer the violinist... u can pursue ur strenght and interest after ns... yeah scholarship also fly away le la... once again cost at expense of pple

us sending poor black kids to die in vietnam

our first policy of foreign affairs... we will not interfere with the domestic affairs of foreign countries

ur protective force got any prob not??? the ans is simple... WE ARE PERFECT.

ok enuff of quoting other pple... what a random entry this has been...

2006-07-15T07:00:00.000-07:00

chma felt weird

2006-07-14T09:43:00.000-07:00

It’s the second time desperate housewives made me tear
The first was out of sheer pity
Imagine you witnessing a pregnant lady
Fall down a flight of stairs
And hurting her stomach
And they showed her plop plop plop plop PIAK
With each plop it definitely hurts you more

The second time wasn’t really a sad scenario
But it was more of the words that pricked me

We feed her
We bathe her
If you’d known me you know I wldnt do such things
I mean
Look at carlos
He sings to her
He even sings to her

Its like
Why do people do things they don’t usually do
I dunno
Its just that I feel sometimes
We ought to go out of our way to help others

It’s been a tough time for me
My kor recently left
And another of my relative abandoned us too
First was her husband at the start of the year
And now its her

And my whole conflict with my tkd club
If you’d known it you’d call me stupid
But I chose to be so for one and a half year
Only to have it climaxed at a dramatic finale
For them to see me fail

Why do some fold shut their doors upon the misery of their neighbours, while other fold open them wide?

In the thin moonlight that sifted down through the broken roof, lyf could see that his eyes looked bruised, as if he had been crying. He waded through the marsh and came to sit silently by her.

They wouldn’t help, he said at last, they turned me away, each last one of them.

Lyf was frightened. Your friends…wouldn’t tell, would they? That we’re here?

No they never would! Or…I don’t think so. Anyway I didn’t tell them where we’re hiding. But I never thought they’d send us away. Spens turned to lyf, I’m sorry lyf. I thought I had friends.

You do have friends; its just…just us. We’re beyond what they can bear.

If they were truly friends, they would have helped.

Lyf didn’t know what to say. He seemed so wretched.

She touched his shoulder, briefly. The wonder, she said, is not that folk would turn us away, but there are folk like you to borrow our troubles and make them yours. You’re risking your life for us, lyf said, I could never do that. I’d run away.

I am doing so
Wish I’d just stop
I lost my guts
I cant face up to anything
I cant concentrate
I used to be overly confident
That complacency was something I cant shake
But I am truly aware
Fully aware of my capabilities
But now
Now I cant
I don’t believe in myself anymore

random short stories

2006-07-05T11:54:00.000-07:00

if all the worlds a stage
and all men and women are merely actors
i say lets kick them all off stage
its too overcrowded
theres just too many actors who suck
or over act
if we're putting on a show
i say we put on a good one
an unforgetable one
for whatever audience

sometimes theres juz too many who act too much
or try too hard to act but they cant
or just suck at it
whats the use then of crowding the stage
and masking the real actors from putting on a bloody good show
how is a brilliant bright spark supposed to shine when there are so many wet blankets encapsulating it and dousing its passion???

i dream of dragons and purple flame
of darkness and beasts untame
over mountains forests and seas i roam
in search of treasures for my own

i conquer warriors wizards and strange adversity
all in my glory for all to fear
and on the way i meet a friend who lack iniquity
and i loved him so very dear

stronger we grow with each harsh battle
more experience we gain with each savage brawl
to be the best no second to settle
those two druid and dragonmaster they call

but in the end they died
too bad haha

mummy mummy what will i be when i grow up

god knows what you will be
you have to find out for yourself

isnt that why im asking you

no you'll discover it for yourself by yourself

why

cos it juz so

i heard that while travelling on the mrt
it got me thinking
what we set out to be in the end
maynt really be what we aspired to
in this harsh reality
we arent really in control of our lives
we may dream of fantastic things
others may always be there to take what shd belong to us away
but in the end
at the very least
what we turn out to be
must be what we enjoy being
fight for yourself all the way
enjoy every moment of it

who i am hates what i am

The Day I Started Reading the Obituaries

2006-06-30T08:37:00.000-07:00

Was the day i cried at a funeral
i never cried at funerals
even my relatives ones
but i cried at this

yeah got an sms from my mum this morning tt my kor kor left

that night we went to the wake
and it was nice to see everyone there
went over to console auntie
and they were all speaking in hokkien
and i was struggling to comprehend everything
but by looking at their faces
i understood everything
well basically he had a heart attack and passed away
he was under tremendous stress from his job
a few days before his passing
he complained of severe heart aches
went to the docs
doc said everything was ok
came home and 2 days later he left peacefully in his sleep
so next time doc say ur ok pls slap him

we offered incense and then went over to see his coffin
before that i was already very heavyhearted
and then when i saw his face
i juz cldnt help tearing
apparently the fucking chee bye embalmer never do a good job
his face was damn dehydrated
but at least he looked peaceful
i told him to go peacefully
and cried more
and it was like
after coming out of the coffin tent
all the other mourners were like looking over
but those assholes weren't at all like looking sad or anything
and my face was damn red and wet and all

yeah for those who know me well
yes i do not indeed haf an older brother
i only have a biological younger brother
and this biological family i have
i am totally not close to them at all
whereas im closer to my godfamily
though i only see them during new years
the next one will never be the same

well you see
when i was born
i stayed at my paternal grandparents place
but my grandparents were like dying age already
though they arent dead yet
and both my parents were working
so i was like topangded at my godfamily's place
which was next door to be cared for
yeah
so the first year i was alive they cared for me everyday
untill we moved to tampines and dad got a car
but still i was sent there for daycare and at night brought home
this continued until my brother was born and a maid was hired
theres auntie uncle 3 jie jies and 2 kor kors
and they all really really really really really really loved me alot
they all seriously loved me alot
they always played with me when i was a baby

especially auntie
each night when my mom came home to bring me back next door
i wld cry
and then auntie wld hold me and i will stop
there werent any kids in their family then so i was like everyone's pet
and i love them alot too
which kinda explains why i am not close at all to my family
cos i never seriously bonded much with my mum or dad when i was young
and i love soft beds alot
cos auntie is kinda plump and always held me

and one of my jie jie is hospitalised
her health worked up after kor kors death
and she cant go send him off
hope she gets well

kinda sudden how people can just go
and we are never the same

a duck story

2006-06-29T03:17:00.000-07:00

is it just everyone or are there people out there who arent screwed for mid years???

here is my tale

chem was a breeze
if i studied i wld get an A
but i was just aiming for a pass so it was fine
but it seriously was kinda easy
and i "studied" to pass it...
had i known i wldnt haf "studied" since i wld haf passed anyway...

lit was a disaster
it will be a shock if i can pass
i cldnt understand the fucking poem at all
and i bimbotically stared at it for 50 minutes
when the other poems were SUPER EASY

physics is soooooo lucky
i am soooooo grateful i had chung ok
there were 10 structured qns
each qn had 3 marks allocated to DEFINITION
30 marks is MINE
another 20 here and there and i pass le

MATHS IS SCREWED
the night before i was watching star sports WIMBLEDON
very exciting
and i was watching late into the night for RODDICK to play
after the federer match
the english decided it was too late
and postponed roddicks match till the next day
WTF
i stayed up till abt 4 for nothign???
and the papers gonna start at 8
nvm relax its MATHS only what

i spent 1 hr doing the first 4 qns
wasted 10 pieces of paper already
and i was like wtf can
they set hard qns in front and easy qns behind
i mean like
shd be the other way round let pple warm up right???
and this cuckoo tot sigma notation very hard
spent so much time on it
scarly the SN qn so easy
its the graphs qns tt were hard
and the bimbo here didnt even know parameters were tested
and its like
the KING OF GRAPHS *so i was called last time for my uncanny ability to draw ANY type of graph without GC*
WASNT ABLE TO DRAW A SIMPLE GRAPH
and it was like 10 marks gone can
and it was only after the paper ended that i realised how to do
and THE BIMBO here once again in action
4 marks function qn
ask us to do composite function
I SO SMART
say the composite function does not exist cos the range not in domain
but i mistook the range for domain
and still thought the teachers dumb for giving me 4 marks for tt statement
got one inequality
i so dumb go and expand
expand till power 4
use remainder fucker theorem too
why didnt i do the a+b a-b... bleagh
so tts like 20 over marks FLY AWAY
no more H3 le lor

then today wake up go play tennis
another wasted day
too tired le
and i still cant do my back spin serve properly
no wonder tennis matches arent held in the morning

but of cos
those dicks
THOSE HORNY DICKS

and the bitching session i had on the train ride home

yeah some pple are gonna start
start being serious after youth day
i guess i shd too
at least got reason at end of year to appeal for h3

discuss the importance of proprietorship

2006-06-20T11:29:00.000-07:00

prevents something one rightfully considers his to be claimed by others

allows easy recognition of owner of property in the dealings with property

as a means of showing others what an owner has

as a means of telling others to fuck off cause property is not owned by them but by the sole propriertorship of owner

however, i beg to differ. proprietorship should only exist on paper and should only apply to non living assets. i own this house i own this car i own this company. yes true. they are registered under my name. My son. my friend. my wife. my parents. my family. my country. go on. how can i truly own them? in saying MY MY MY i do to a certain extent display some proprietor assertion to the person/s in question. but can i truly own them??? the boy, im his father, without me he wont be alive, he is MY son, not yours. yes that might be right. biologically he is. but it isnt always the case. what if that boy does not consider me his father? if i do not fulfill the role of a father in bringing him up, and some other man does, does it make it wrong for the boy to consider another as his real father??? a father he never had???

what i am driving at is that proprietorship is just inanimate. it is a requirement of society. what is truly important is when dealing with living things, no one owns another one. there is no point in being exclusive or being double faced--- sucking up to those whom are considered better and belittling those who arent--- then again... what is better and what isnt??? paper qualification??? ability to retain facts??? moral values??? intelligence??? looks??? what is one to judge another??? what good is it to say those are my workers they work for me i pay them but they never ever consider u their boss??? what good is it to say tts my family but they dun feel you belong??? Belonging is the equivalent of proprietorship when it comes to animations. what for say that is my school when you dont belong there... what for say those are my friends when you dont belong to their clique??? for those who belong it is only expected for them to say FUCK OFF to you if you dont belong.

owning something is but temporary
it could always be lost in a moment
but if you belong
its forever

belong

be longed for

2006-06-18T01:28:00.000-07:00

woo
its been a long time since i last posted

yeah
well basically play com sleep
tts for the second week after i came back from the dumb pre u sem
third week was like same
but got world cup
and yeah was keeping up with the roland garros french open
nows the world cup
after that is the wimbledon
i truly wonder when i will start studying...
and i wanna take h3 maths...
BLEAGH

we'll see how...
lets see how strong my will power to over power the rest at cj is

2006-06-08T06:51:00.000-07:00

envy me please
i met a cambridge mathematics professor today
school sent a few of us to a maths course
organised by NUS
we met professors from all over the world
best part was the cambridge one
he wanted to prove an ancient greek problem
if u use a rope of length L
whats the maximum area it can encompass???
its actually a circle of area L square over 4 PI
and he proved it using 10 methods
YES 10 METHODS
but everything was totally UNunderstandable
isoperimetric theorem
p-adic numbers
nim theory
line theory
omg
oh
oh
oh
the best part
i cld answer a difficult qn
but cant prove my answer

and even better
in the morning
while we were like waiting outside moe
guess who i met???
no
not tharman
someone more important
NO
not gan kim yong
NO
not the much anticipated bus driver
it was
IT WAS
my fav chem teacher
yup
met him
and he looks the same old same old
hope hes doing good at moe.

and yeah
envy me
i met someone whos gonna set or mark ur script for the a or o levels
we even talked for like quite damn long la
its like
mathsy talk
but of cos i was like squeezing alot outta him
hehe
evil me

2006-06-07T06:35:00.000-07:00

i guess its rather nostalgic to watch and see alot of familiar faces on the singapore idol. well yeah not just paul twohill but others as well. but he's the one that really striked me the most. and i think its not just me. watching his performance really really made me recall 4 years in that stupid place. 4 years of fond fond memories. we all yeah we all will never never ever ever get to experience them again. how we all wish we will. but we wont. but those times were good. and experiencing it once, living through it once,enjoying it but only once, sad we cant have more, but once is enough. it was good.

2006-06-04T02:10:00.000-07:00

on the first day
i went back to school first
and i saw my classmates rushing here there for make up lessons
which i see no point in
whats the use of making up for lessons
that the teacher himself wastes
my lit teacher comes for lessons 15 mins late all the time
whats the use of making up for that???
and the chem teacher totally cannot control the class
always chitchatting and bullshitting with the class
the physics one is worse
teach nothing
and the maths one is great
but cant stand when he gets distracted
which is so damn easily
and gp which i have no teacher
and why dun i have make up for chinese
which i feel the most need and justification for

as such i planned not to go for any make up lessons
and i am keeping to my word
let my results speak for themselves
that i dun need teachers to do well

well so went to pre u sem
checked in
first day was mainly admin
stupid briefings
and ice breaking
and i must say
i became a total bimbo when i was at pre u sem
the first night at the ice breakers
the first 2 games we played
the girls were like screaming like mad
and at the 3rd game we were like lets do that too
we played polar bear
A was chasing B and B joined my threesome
i ran like fuck and scram like a mad girl
i was initially the middle person
so immagine
it was just the first round
and it was a combined group game
5 groups
and they started with 2 chasers and runners
so the whole group was like bursting out loud wif laughter
and i was screaming so crazily that i didnt know what was going on
and i was still running for my life
until people composed themselves and called me
to which i stopped abruptly and realised my blunder
to add to that
i sprained my left ankle
great start to the dumb seminar

and there was that "why isnt my handphone charging"
and how come i dont see firemen rescue cats from trees
and the whole bridge incident
all goes to show my bimbotism
such that i didnt dare approach any prominent person during the tea
and asked them questions

second day was boring also talks and all that
third day i get maths olympiad
as usual i always figure out the answers when im at home and not during the test
skipped a whole lot of talks
but at nite i damn stone

fourth day
guerilla filming
omg it was so nice la
the pple at paya lebar scdf station were like just super fucking ncie can
they onned one fire truck and showed us how they operated it la
it was like fucking super nice to us la
and i must say
i am proud of the film we made
its really good
dunnoe why some dumb shows made it to the finals

last day i was supposed to be happy to go home
but i was kinda reluctant to leave the nice pple behind
and when i got home
i slept 18 hours straight

how i miss my cat high class mates...
WE MUST MEET OFTEN HOR

2006-06-04T02:01:00.000-07:00

today there was fine weather
i was looking out of my window
overlooking the mega playground area
some 3g playground with other facilities
like concert ground bball court
sepak takraw badminton volleyball court
so on
and i was looking at the immense amount and number of little kids playing at those places
how i miss my childhood
which i cant remember
its nice living in a hdb estate again
besides this new place overlooks JB
and right below my block they're building a new school
maybe my kids can go there
NOT

got me thinking
its probably nice to be poorER
yeah i was thinking
when i grow up
i'll live in a hdb
then when my kids are old enough
we'll move to a condo
at least i give my kids a nice childhood
every evening go downstairs play until sun set
how fun

pre u sem

2006-06-02T21:56:00.000-07:00

yay im finally back from pre u sem
now on to enjoying my holidays
which isnt really much
since one week of which has already been over
and alot more events that really waste my time are planned...
well so next week is studying week

and yeah i shant really elaborate much on pre u sem
well not today this is just a temp post
a real one shd soon be up
mmm

2006-05-10T05:21:00.000-07:00

confucius says

man jumping off a cliff is jumping to conclusion
being down to earth

man with hand in pocket is keeping the ball rolling

man lying on railway track will have a splitting headache

man with fever is hot

woman who jumps is making milkshake

man who puts worm on a hook is master baiter

man who plays guitar have good fingering

man with dick in peanut butter is fucking nuts

ok cant think of any more... unless u wan these

man who cuts off a finger has 9 fingers

man who closes his eyes cannot see

2006-05-05T01:17:00.000-07:00

it was said that people from good sec sch classes in jc are too busy with their lives that they always neglect everything else. true. ive been caught up in work. damn tired these few weeks... im like competing for testimonial embellishments and enjoying my free time fully that work/mugging to keep my standard way above pple has taken a boot space. now its test after test. sch trying to get us to study. but it aint working. pw is taking a freaking alot of time. chinese too. i wan get an a. cca juz started proper training... my arms and legs are piak. whats more im spending alot of time on gp. and keeping up wif the GE. haiz. yeah. tts the past few weeks for me.

have fun reading this

kero kero dun try to be a hero the sun can't die becuz it was never alivethe moon will become a triangle when u at it look thru kaleidoscope...and the stars will taste like strawberry when u eat honey stars with strawberry milk...so hows ur love nw?

the sun will die, literally. it will explode one day and be replaced by some other star. i dont tink colin will ever look tru the kaleidoscope at a moon. even if he ever does. so? the stars in the sky will never taste like strawberry. i mean stars. i didnt say honey stars. are you havin the same IQ as other kids in your school? even if all these happened, our love will still be as strong. cant you see i'm juz tryin to be sweet and romantic in the entry? do you have to go all the mean to spoil it? you did try to, but i dont tink you succeed.

This relationship seems superficial. That's what I have to say after reading a few of your erm, purging-material posts.(Purgers can read his posts to purge with ease.)

after readin tis entry, i believe your mum dont have a vagina, your dad dont have a dick and you're a retarded. that's what i have to say after readin your erm, comment

please respect them people.
save the trees

Slow Dance

2006-04-17T02:47:00.000-07:00

poem written by the dying
to the dying

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

2006-04-16T05:39:00.000-07:00

started off waking early to go for some celebrations

then reached serangoon garden there
and could not find someone cause we had different goreng pisang stalls in mind
then after about 20 minutes search i finally made it to the destined place
BUT IT WASNT
it was the small commode beside it
oh what a setback
i tot it was the modern huge and nice one
but it was the humble abode right next to it
ok fine
go in
late
nvm
sit there watch listen
then got one old man come out
i tell u his intonation rocks
the old man's intonation ROCKS
and he asks stupid things
lets flip to blah blah blah
then yeah my fren lent me his book
by the time i started flipping
well i was still flipping
and he led in a word
by the time i realise they were bowing their heads
i did so and they finished
right
so embarrassing
then later
offering session
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH
everyone was like putting their hands into the bag
REGARDLESS OF WHETHER THEY HAD ANYTHING TO OFFER
best still
the girl beside me
she DROPPED COINS INSIDE
and it was like CLING CLING CLING
and i burst out laffing
it says 2 things
shes cheapskate
and so were many others
damn cute
then i was thinking abt what someone else said
one of the offering bags kena kopped b4

then got one eat biscuit and drink wine session
only for purified pple
i remember my times at PLMC long ago during my boys brigadering years
they gave one round biscuit
and real wine
and the big brother or father personally fed us that
here
OMG
broken bits and pieces of biscuit
and RIBENA
which i found out later
to my most hilarious shock
i even wanted to take one lor
the guy was like offering me
then i was like sorry no thanks
he was like juz take la
then i was like ***Ku

oh yeah the big brother was treating us like kiddies too
asking us questions that seem nonsensical to me
and whether we wld dare to stake our lives on the answers
to that question
the response was ironically much worse
to another round of intense controlled laughter

ok if u cant get what i mean
immagine a huge room filled wif pple
silent and listening to some soft music
and me giggling away at what seems to be the normal procedure there
yes
embarrassing
but funny

ok after the whole session
go outside
interact abit
then there was this fag
he kept asking abt my faith and why i cant commit to any one
then i was like ***KO
so i kinda pretended to use hp
and he kept seeing what i was typing
i really wanted to give him a real good kicking in his ass

after that go ah ma hs
on mrt
suddenly got this one bunch of old ladies come in
what members of breast cancer foundation
on their t shirt
behind was like what
compassion ambition (yeah right ambition) benevolence
many others to my humour too
and there was one that made me really dropped my jaws
BELLA DONNA
old boobless pple wanna be BELLA DONNAS wif one screening a year???
then i should have the word sex bomb written all over me then

yeah
ok contradictory to my previous post

darryl the unsaint

the silence

2006-04-14T07:31:00.000-07:00

another post from the vietnam newspaper
this time i'll really try to touch your hearts

john(not his real name) was hit
while playing ball with his friends
a friend accidentally kicked a ball that was out of the playing field back into the field
the thing is
his friend didnt see where he was kicking
and the ball hit john on his face
his right side of the face to be specific
the impact was great
and it left a tinging sensation on his face
a ringing sound in his ears
the it hurt well after the hit
that night
his mom applied some cream
it was later found to be expired and wrongly applied
the cream was no longer effective
worse still it was for the wrong symptoms
even worse
it was bacteria infested and rotting
remember it was expired
it worsened his face
his friends came to see him
what are friends for
that friend apologised
john could only look away
not saying anything
sorry cant help his face which was developing weird symptoms
he went to the doctors
the doctor prescribed another type of cream
remember my last post about doctors prescribing wrong medicine?
well
this new cream once again worsened
john died from gangrene of the face a few weeks later
he died a sad boy

immagine how i felt when i was reading the newspaper
immagine if u were john
immagine if you were his friends
his ball playing friends
the friend who kicked the ball that hit his face
his mother
or the doctor

who will you pity most

john wif physical hurt all the time
emotional damage
his friends who lost a good friend
the friend who kicked the ball
who was guilty of his death
his mother
the ignorant fool or the blind lover
the doctor
the asshole

i feel sorry for john
but theres no point in doing so
the damage is done
and i shouldnt too
afterall hes a rotten face
literally

too many kids in vietnam dying
too little done to prevent crying

2006-04-13T05:16:00.000-07:00

ok now my schedule is hectic
and is gonna get hecticER
my week now lasts 7 days
haha

no free day at home all by myself to do my own stuff
this is FUN

ok now for some serious stuff

recently i went to vietnam
ok well so i dreamt i did
i read in a newspaper from vietnam
dun ask how i got it

it says the health and medical system in vietnam is so corrupted and backward and unstructured and all the bad things
so much so that doctors give wrong medicine more specifically wrong antibiotics to their patients all the time
the article was mainly about the wrong antibiotics given to the many children each day
and many children each day die from wrong prescriptions
its bad enough to be sick and not have proper medical attention
when one is sick one rather he have no medicine and die from a lack of it
than have wrong medication and worsen the symptoms
when a sick child for example one having the most common flu
and is given a wrong prescription of antibiotics
his lungs get more infected
the virus evolves to be more resistant
this example
the child's lungs get infected
he breathes and coughs blood
BLACK blood
he has tremendous difficulty breathing
and he dies by drowning in his own blood
this happens everyday
and the gov can do nothing to help it

well the story touched me
probably wont do so to you
and i suppose such articles appear on their newspaper everyday
that they become indifferent to it

well now im a changed person
im gonna volunteer my services to charitable organisations to help out as many people as possible

DARRYL THE SAINT

2006-04-07T07:34:00.001-07:00

ok this week got better

i got into the pre u sem
got shortlisted for temasek sem
but didnt get selected to be interviewed for the cambridge presentation
got into volley

and er
pardon me for this section
im gonna brag

that day we had a maths test
when the teacher gave out the qn paper
he said u haf 45 mins
to do a 30 marks test paper
its open book
can use GC
OH my i tot
open book and can use GC
muz be damn hard
to my greatest defiling horror
the qns were friggin simple
one of them was even done in the tutorials
and the questions were so fucking easy
u noe how stressed i was
the test is already so easy
and the teacher made it even easier to test them on concept
and he allowed blatant reference to concept
so bcos i am definitely a huge standard different from them
i had to stress myself fully to score a perfect score
cos they prolly wld get like at least 25
and they did...
so many 25 and above
and thank me i did score full marks

ok braggin over

yup went back wif my class for the life concert
too christiany
but enjoyable
and i haf to shout out
us first intakers brought the fun back to sa
and kinda weird how some nonlinkers were there
but was fun
nice seeing the original saints again

2006-03-29T02:49:00.000-08:00

screwed up some interviews
didnt make some teamS
dying during physicals
failed a physics test
gonna fail a chem one

bad start

THIS HAS GONNA STOP

can can u believe it if i said i was slapped by the principal

ok now im gonna be like someone else

im gonna haf no life
im gonna mug everyday
im gonna train everyday
no life for 2 years
train mug
get awards
top every subject
work hard
this is it
i mean it
seriously i do

then i'll probably end up screwing and being screwed

2006-03-26T05:41:00.000-08:00

mid year is first week term 3
renovating house from may till june
dun study now no time to study

my life is bitter

the horror of ten years series
force feeding standard

and the intake in this wretched place is super imbalance...
all ccas have an excess of testosterone
leading to the selection of the best
i dunnoe if i can get into what i want
i dunnoe what i'll do if i dun

shda stayed
less troubles...

my thoughts

2006-03-25T04:48:00.000-08:00

decided not to retake the o levels

first week in cj over

went back the other day to cat high
everyone was so tired
but their day was brightened up by us
so were ours
really rare to see teachers smile
even rarer to see them smile so easily

all that talk abt topping
as if its so easy
PLEASE DO
the normal response
i will try
it will be my goal
but it wont be easy
it definitely wont be easy
the standard is juz too wide
bridging the gap...
i need superheroes to force feed my standard up...
wonder if they exist...

i dunnoe what im doing wif my life now
i havent really thought abt it
where should i really be???
i dunnoe...
ever since i left there
and entered here
i havent really been showing any emotions or feelings to where i am
but i noe i miss back there
so do i noe that i cant stay there for i wont make it big there
a good life
vs a good life
i chose a good life

i wonder which is better

my first praise

2006-03-16T21:49:00.000-08:00

today
wei wei
praised me
he said that my
chinese beri pro le

as mentioned
wei wei is the nicest person on earth
noone ever praised me sincerely for being good in that
yep im so touched

2006-03-15T08:07:00.000-08:00

YEAH im part of GONG JIAO again
its an ok place
as mentioned preceptors are better

yep went for camp
didnt sleep
well eaten by mosquitoes
broiled by concrete release
learnt some german kiddy songs
bridged the whole nite
which is kinda dumb
those pple there didnt noe how to play good bridge
after teaching them awhile
i decided not to play
*they're not improving no pt wasting talent
so half slpt and half toked abt
in the end
i was so dirty from sweat and what not
i climbed the gate and went home
the highlight of the camp was the german breakfast
but after my bath at home
it was only natural i fell asleep
missed the breakfast
damn
*actually i dun like german breakfast, had 2 weeks of that a few years back

man i skipped so many make up lectures
i need remedials
as if i never pon enuff...
well thanks to mr retarded for helping me get notes
if u ever get to read this
I PROMISE TO GO TO UR WHATEVER YOUTH GROUP ACTIVITY THE NEXT ROUND

now for a story entitled:

IT PAYS TO PUNISH YOURSELF

one day wei wei was walking along the road
he walked passed NYDC and he saw the cheese cake
and he jumped up and down jumped up and down
saying i wan eat i wan eat i wan eat
but poor wei wei
NYDC was closed
then kind me suggested going to tea leaf shop
so wei wei went tea leaf shop
he ordered their cheesecake
he ordered an ice cuppacino
costed him abt 10 bucks
he took one sip
and said it sucks
he took a bite
he said it sucks
the ice cuppacino is too bitter
the cheesecake is disgusting

so kind me again
i ordered a scone and a caramel latte
i showed wei wei the ways of a gourmet
add the powdered flavouring
informed him
milk was free
wei wei was so pathetic
he really couldnt take his PUNISHMENT
he actually paid money to PUNISH himself
he stole 2 cups of milk
he stole aLOT of powdered flavouring
and he like witches
boil
boil
toil and trouble
cuppacino became
latte became
KOPI
and he said its much better
and the poor cheesecake
so fresh
so full bodied
melts in ur mouth
superb texture
delicious taste
was more or less finished by unweiwei

once again
wei wei is the nicest person on earth

juz had to hold back when pooling our resources away
at least taught them to draw their shots

PUNderful i am
lIT being my passion
got lIT???

2006-03-10T00:35:00.000-08:00

a loss for me
a loss for them
a loss for all

i wear blue tee
pple get stunned
like tt air of geishaness
make a man stop in his track with one stare

so its tennis or volleyball for me
and the preceptors are good
really good

ill be in the steller position of all endeavours
fear me
execrate me
revere me
like me
my process

2 years to completion
being what was not set out to be

2006-03-06T05:48:00.000-08:00

it was a warm night
and as i was playing my guitar
i was furiously irritated by the flies flying ard
i looked at the ceiling
and i was like
this is not kluang
took the insect killer thingy
baygon or something
then spray le
cont playing guitar
OMG they came back
i closed the window
sprayed like fuck
then later realise
stuffy
on air con
then play play
after tt i dust the carcasses off my bed and slpt

next morning i woke up wif sorethroat
inhaled too much baygonish stuff
i need insects in my throat
too clean cannot speak

then take bus to sch
clever me
took wrong direction
yay
go where
go to ponggul
then take back
gd for me 1 hr 25 mins late nia
go inside hall
i juz step inside only
never move much
then of cos i look ard for placards for my og rite
then when its the principals turn to tok
he go up
he say got one guy
he JUST came in
and he looked ard
i shant mention who
but i do remember him
he was wearing a distinctive yellow tee shirt

and clever me again
everyone wearing full u
i was the exception
nice first start huh

luckily darren zhihao yang yang there
if not for them i wld haf a boring subject tok

then later yay
got other pple who i noe
more or less wear green shorts u will noe one la

and after sch
got jason lee li kai to go home wif

li kai very funny
gave him my number
what do pple normally call u?
i kept laffing
its like
why cant u juz ask whats my name

the pple who stayed seemed happy
the new ones all super sian diao
like same case for all jcs huh
all not posted to where they wanted...

im gonna be called
im gonna make a come back

GONG JIAO WAN SHUI

2006-03-04T08:38:00.000-08:00

since the day results were out
10 feb
i was so friggin sad
i juz registered
without giving much thought
without thinking abt the consequences

and it has been my stance all these while
nj nj nj nj nj nj nj
if not cj lor
i juz WANTED to get out of sa

but twas only 2 days b4 posting
that i decided sa over cj

im in cj

i regret it

i cant do anything

im dumb

my last day in sa
i was going home wif a fren by bus
he said to me
muz keep in contact
if u can
get me to play tennis wif u
i can perfect my shots
and u can train ur shots
but u are always not free
i'll make time for u
dun worry

i was deeply touched
once again

the other time was the last class gathering last year
i was on the train home wif a close fren
one stop b4 his stop
tt whole journey for tt one stop
we were both quiet
dead silent
i stared at the floor
he too
then when the train reached
he said what i wanted to say to him
exactly what i wanted to say
so i guess is see you next year
muz keep in contact
and i was friggin holding back tears
holding them back vehemently

on that bus ride home tt last day
i didnt haf to
pple do lie
i haf yet to see the truth

not everyone treasure frens as much as i do
not many pple noe why i do so too

this world is full of hypocrites
why am i spending my orientation 2 in cj

2006-03-02T07:25:00.000-08:00

today was my last day in sa
my class had some mini celebration
gave each other stuff
and yeah tok pics

funniest was taking wif the chinese teacher
she and i push push push
then snap
picture taken with her zao geng

then take wif other frens
but alot not ard one...
especially mr TT

and yeah thanks to the nice stuff u all said to me

lan jiao kia and his
tmr ur last day
we will miss u so much

guan rui and his
EVERYTHING

but no one reads this blog
noone can listen to my thanks
i do really really really appreciate
the wonderful time i had in sa for pae wif u all
everyone

up and on

2006-03-01T04:36:00.000-08:00

hate those who managed to find out where they get to go
hate moe

2006-02-27T19:50:00.000-08:00

wait till march the 3rd

wait

wait

wait

wait

wait

2006-02-21T03:01:00.000-08:00

after abt 2 weeks of sore throat and flu
my voice is officially destroyed

sa is boring me off big time
now im having more fun engaging in my ponnage

and first time i heard boon liang say something logical

if valerie tan come to sa
shes a goddess

tts the standard of sa
come if u dare!

und jetzt habe ich meine Tausche verloren und eine neue kaufen muss aber ich nicht meine Verstand gebildet, ob die Tausche von die Marke mit den drei Streife fur funfzig oder von eine kinde Marke Tausche fur dreizig... da weiss ich nicht... bleagh

desparately waiting for next friday
i wish one and all happiness
contentment
peace
and please save the whales

2006-02-18T02:25:00.000-08:00

terence tay is the nicest person on earth
serious

cj or sa
cj or sa
cj or sa
cj or sa
cj or sa
cj or sa
cj or sa
cj or sa

2006-02-10T20:56:00.000-08:00

i wont be myself for quite some time

eng a1
comb humans a2
lit b4
maths a1
a maths a2
physics a1
chem a2
german b4
chinese a2

english, maths, physics and comb humans i got what i expected
a mahts chem lit and german i didnt...
especially a maths and german

i mean yeah its gd
but the bad part overwrites the good

i dunnoe how ever will i live with that

the best gift teachers can give to students
is an education
the best emotion
love

i'll forever miss cat high

2006-02-06T01:59:00.000-08:00

Your mythical hidden body part are those sharp

claws and fangs of a wolf. You are violent,

commanding but sometimes misunderstood. Even

though you put up a violent appearance and

behaviour, you are actually hiding something.

Nobody really knows you and sometimes you're

hack care about stuff. Wolves are just

misunderstood creatures and so are many other

creatures which we think they are harmful.

People don't enjoy mixing with you as you

tend to behave this manner, hiding your true

self.

Open up! Try getting used to the environment and

gradually allow people to enter your world to

help bring you out of there.

What is your hidden mythical body part? [with pictures]
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most accurate of all quizzes i taken

long time since i ran
and i be running again
to get outta here
but a double digit
and i disappear

an enjoyable new year
to be enjoyed only
nice to have met up wif frens
i so miss gong jiao
i had a ridiculous dream
i was the valedictorian
and i led in the gong jiao oei cheer
it sure brings back memories

i have seen the scenic view
from my bedroom window
these passed decade over
but im reminded of it only
when foreigners comment
but it is nice
greenery round the compass
acres afar

i hate boring school
food science is so tempting

2006-02-01T02:57:00.000-08:00

in all literature i studied
we never study the different kinds of happiness

a mother giving her child a big hong bao on his birthday
happiness
sadness

an sms wishing happy birthday from an old old fren
happiness
sadness

fruiting of a plant after half a year of care
happiness
sadness

meeting old frens once again
happiness
sadness

it is a fact there are more dystopias in lit than utopias
tts why we never learn what happiness really is

it is hard to comprehend
the feeling i felt when i came home today
and saw my plant wif an awkward protrution
its a fruit
it finally bore fruit after half a year

its hard to understand too
glass and litter as a birthday present
it made ones day

its just hard to fathom too
how easily pple are pleased
and how hard it is to please others
wonder what im doing wif my life
i guess theres a difference
being contented in life and being happy in life
i guess this insatiable apetitite for fulfilment
will never be cured

2006-01-19T02:43:00.000-08:00

last year
i had like more than half a hundred wishes
i remembered every few steps i took
someone wished me something
or said something
and my phone was like beeping like crazy the nite b4 and the day itself
at mdnite i remembered a few sms came at the same time
48 formed a circle round me and sang in the middle of the field
and i had a few gifts

this year
i will only say
thanks to all who remembered
especially my cg
tts the most unexpected

if ur feeling sorry dun
im used to it
its only last year tt was memorable

play neopets
the neopets team can be more than friends
free gifts and a greeting and a nice animated stuff

2006-01-13T07:08:00.000-08:00

didnt noe so many pple also wanna get outta sa
see lor
if i less than 7 i go out
but unlikely lar
but ill see alot pple going out
not cos they scored better

and today in class
the teacher too smart le
inference too zun le
i had to smile
i said i like to lie on my bed
which is true i slp in afternoon
then i use the com
which is true at nite
then i watch tv
my fav show is at 1 am
then she ask if im always like tt
i said yes
then she said u must be very smart
never study and get very good grades
i was stun diao so i cld only smile
dunnoe what impact it had on my classmates
urgh

lessons are boring
my subject combi too rare le
so much free time
if only the recreational room
or whatever they call tt karang guni house
has a pool table

well looking forward to next week
love to meet my old frens

back to homeland

2006-01-08T23:49:00.000-08:00

the dm at sa really pissing me off
catch me again
today
catch me for LONG HAIR
its like
bloody fuck
i since when i got LONG HAIR
tt fag catch me tt time
i was damn shocked
and i WHATTED him like damn loud also
then after tt hear them talk lan jiao wei
made me miss half hour lit
so i ponned
u see ar
its not me tt is becoming a bad boy
its the dm making us become bad boys and bad girls
screw DMs lar
juz noe how to destroy my day only

maths lecture so boring
i did the maths stuff ahead w/o a teacher to teach me

then go back wif clarence to cat high
first thing come out of taxi
guess who i saw
nearest to science lab
who's house?
yep
that old bitch
then go canteen jiak
first time this year i finish my food
at sa i never finish food one
chat wif paul tristan and peck eng
then go staff room 1
bo lang
then go staff room 2

quotations

first day of school i was so depressed
mrs bala asked why
i said i miss my 4-8
immagine she saying that in the act cute
act sad wanna cry tt type of tone

lit all the way
u all will always be the elites

when u all are here u all dont know how to appreciate
but when u leave then u all noe how good cat high is

i rather sit there and teach then do all the *shit*
mouths the word
i rather not have this ST (senior teacher)

chat wif pearl adeline mary danny
then go back 1
chat wif mel and chung
pang not there boo hoo

short visit
but worth it nonetheless
i miss cat high
its the same old same old
then when walking home in the rain
umbrella spoilt ma
lent to girls and they spoilt it
moral is dun ever lend girls ur umbrella
walk by side gate
tt feeling
the rain pelting the ground
the sky a hazed colour
the field desolate
the students dashing for the green lights
shirts tucked out
cept for the toots
the gound a flooded
i walked that path
it feels like
im back there once again
it feels like
i belong there
it feels like
i am there
studying

thing is
i am

2006-01-06T21:57:00.000-08:00

the last day of orientation
to think i was thinking of ponning it

its a little crazy lar
we spent so much time preparing for it
stay back so many hours
waste our youth
and then the finale
a few minutes nia
3 cheers and a 10 mins skit
do we need to spend so much time
mad sa

so go in morn
LATE
but very weird
can juz walk up to my og w/o getting caught
tot very nice
they juz finished assembly
then go classs
tio niao by og teacher in charge
very nice
then submit form for subject combi

after that
it was prep again for finale
prep till 5
madness
then finale
finale till around 7
very boring lar
but what came after wasFUN
didnt know why it wasnt called FINALE

they turned off the lights
and onned the disco lights
and they played music
all pop
and pop rock
SIAN
then dance lor
dance dance dance
so fun
jump
shout scream dance
then they also performed some music
jammed the place
it was very dark lar
so can juz anyhow dance
dun care how u dance
more or less pple cant see you
but seriously some pple are real good dancers
they probably go clubbing
then some of us went wild
they juz grabbed a few pple
and started running about the place in a train
then follow lar
and grab pple along the way
shove and push and run
then the councillors stopped us
so kill joy
then also
we formed one big circle
and then ran into the middle
still holding hands
and CRASHED
yeah tt was fun
especially crashing into pple
dunnoe whether got done any indecent acts lar
but i think i did
and it was fun
especially when u climbing up from the mess

then er
halfway clarence came over
i saw him lar
he was finding ying neng
then we dance lor
then we tried to find yn too
but cant
so he went back his og
i followed him
still pop and pop rock
dance a little
then it was R&B
WOOHOO
finally some r&b
then clarences og mates started grinding
and he joined in

then i went back my og
the disco lasted 40 mins
mad fun
after that we went chomp chomp for dinner
and left for home

2006-01-05T04:16:00.000-08:00

im only blogging now because
the first 2 days of orientation sucked

today
mass dance
chooney chooney
the bangla song
we danced a modern indian dance wif the SA twist
it was a MEGA ASS SHAKING
wide eyed terror
all the guys were like opening their eyes damn big
and cannot blink
cos the chio bu s on stage
are sooo fucking CHIO
but i dunnoe wads their fucking problem lar
when we danced tt time
they separated the girls from the guys

then we played disgusting games
sit on ketchup
throw squid

im kinda getting the hang of sa
like not panicking when u see its 0705 on my watch
when going to school
like having to wait alot
i do mean wait alot
cause everyone here very laid back
patient
not *snap *snap snap snap and its done

im seeing alot of old friends
its nice to see them studying same school again
immagine if we had a class gathering
the others wont understand what we're talking about

but i dun like one thing about them
they like to make us wait alot
and like to make us stay back
schedule say 5 o clock dismiss
ask us stay back
at most i stay 5 10 minutes
but make us stay 1 hour plus lar
because im a cat high gentleman
i had to keep up the good name of cat high
so i sneaked out and went home
CAT HIGH ALL THE WAY
u think i was gonna stay there and cheer???
staying for more than 15 mins is called giving 10 yrs supply of face le lor

and also
first 3 months
i've decided to take whatever courses and cca
that i dont think i will be excelling in
its juz to try out
in other words
im doing nonsense stuff
maybe after march i go NJ and be serious
its a little hard to communicate with them sometimes
their vulgarities sometimes non stop one
tts very NO class
and themats can be very rowdy
dsa what u expect
so unrefined

well see u all soon
i miss u all so so much

2005-12-31T02:07:00.000-08:00

mmm yup new skin
the previous one was kinda hard to read

2 more days
how i miss my ENTIRE time in cat high
how i miss my friends
how i miss the jokes
how i miss

the numerous dumb events the sch had

chinese new year

zoo trip

Germany trip

hows it like seeing pple from a rear perspective???

70th anniversary OBA dinner

Grad Night

my classes

48

G4C
my german class

Lit

this is most interesting
see the evolution

i remember once

when i got the pictures for my sec 3 class

i sat at my table

and this i wrote:

A class of much talent

A gang of much style

A team of much dedication

may it be and always be

preludes for all to see

of what is to be accomplished

from intelligences in leash

The best years of my life...

2005-12-22T05:43:00.000-08:00

christmas time
brings tidings to the year
but i dont celebrate it

well i'll just try to pick up from where i left off
which is quite far back

hows a too well preplanned chalet for a change
food always available
water always refilled
activities bound to happen
but wad about doing stuff tts boring?
ridiculous?
sophomoric?
in some of those frouzies
we just drifted away
drifted out
swept away by the wind
to where ever is tranquil
yeah there was fun
the fun of being wif classmates
probably taken to be literal
but the more true to be wif frens

then hows a very SPONTANEOUS chalet for instance
theres no need for any planning
the class is very united
the class is very impetuous
want something done
juz rally the horde
and to infinity and beyond we shall soar
but did we
again
the wind was welcomed
food was scarce
water was limited
mans savage instincts were clearly seen
whats a barbeque thats planned 3 hours before hand???
whats cooking spaghetti
without my usual ingredients
whys my dignity broken
when i vowed to be passive for the whole while
only to help wif some cleaning up
and the cooking
pity
pity the horde
u noe when a chalet fails when u finish reading a book
i love the photos

also
heres a big big big THANK YOU
to ying neng, nicol, clarence, algene, zhihao
thanks for everything
ill miss u guys

merry christmas
save the whales

2005-12-02T21:19:00.000-08:00

every society needs heroes
and every society has them
the reason we dont often see them
is because we dont bother to look

there are two kinds of heroes
heroes who shine in the face of great adversity
who perform an amazing feat in a difficult situation
and heroes who live among us
who do their work unceremoniously
unnoticed by many of us
but who make a difference in the lives of others

heroes are selfless people who perfrom extraordinary acts
the mark of heroes is not necessarily the results of their action
but what they are willing to do for others
and their chosen cause
even if they fail
their determination lives on
for others to follow
the glory
lies not in the achievement
but in the sacrifice

there are people
teachers for example
who walk tens of miles
a day to reach their school
all for the meager reward of some 20 bucks a month
and no doubt plenty of grief
from their studens
yet the same they make the journey
they are all silent heroes

so what is a hero?
who is a hero?
is it the decorated general who leads his army to victory?
or the unknown soldier quietly obeying orders?
is it the researcher who finds a cure for cancer
or the country doctor treating the sick for free?
should a hero be one who savs thousands of lives?
or who comforts just one?
and what drives them?

we should wonder
if we met them
and that we were in their shoes
would we do the exact same
perhaps there is a hero in all of us
we just need to look!

guess who wrote this???

susilo bambang yudhoyono
in his futile bid to raise moral of his people
during the tsunami crisis
yeah and i extracted all the examples of heroism and heroinism
lest u think im not one

2005-12-02T21:18:00.000-08:00

2005-12-01T00:25:00.000-08:00

yeah i noe the skin is a little unreadable for the time being
bear wif it
shd haf it changed soon
when haf time lar

well for this part of my life
it is hard juz to dedicate a chapter to it
i suppose i shall start from somewhere

it is a painful thing to be insignificant
and then turn significant
only to be once again left at a corner
such Great Expectations indeed

fun it was trashing all my german classmates at pool
fun it was having a nice reunion and a bbq
fun it was to be rid of them again

a haggard grad nite day
not so much plans
not so much fun
not so much as expected

great to see friends ever again
great to see the crazy antics ever again
great to see pple having the time of their lives
great to laugh at those ridiculed
great to cheer someone into stardom
great to throw cash into holes cause of cellular malfunction
great to haf experienced all of it

it was ever so easy for to just leave and say bb
learnt to accept it and later relinquish it
happiest of all times to see again
cheap thrills for odd hours
frouzing snatching for frozen curd
the best day

grad nite

2005-11-25T01:08:00.000-08:00

730 days wif being with my classmates
365 days exactly my hair wasnt touched by a yalam or chee ko pek lau ah pek barber
21 ntuc plastic bags of books/papers thrown after 0 levels
10 days in germany
9 O level subjects OWNED
8 an auspicious number
7 dollars approximate price for an island doormat
6 weeks holidays
5 barbecues so far planned for the hols
4 days 2703 chalet
3 days 4805 chalet
2 unexpected class gatherings

1

grad nite

1

favourite song

1

wet day at the beach

1

jc

1

separation

1

farewell

1

friend

forever

2005-11-05T04:28:00.000-08:00

well today i did it
then i wanted to do again
but then i wast to tired
so cldnt find out
frequency

it wld be boring to tok abt the Os
but yeah it is enuff to torture
but its weird
i wanted it to be THE time
where everyone juz maxed their engines
oiled their joints
and raced for the finish
but it isnt

everyones changing
and theres noone left thats real

on one company
im assualted by hippopotamouses all the time
keep having the urge to call spca
for the loose hippos
sent on their rampage

on another i haf a damn fun one
but who noes if they cld be worse
the mad cow disease
saps my brain
then leave me as fodder for maggots
but they are fun

still another
its more real
i know they will say HI
even after 10 000 yrs
then we wont have anything to say
we'll look at each other wif a heavy heart
and a wide smile on our face
and then like life
go on

well it happened once
i traded a best friend for many other friends
when i accepted the SUPPLEMENTARY programme into rosyth
then i made that choice again
leaving my gd friends in chinese high
to go to cat high
cos i was offered SAP
but im not going to VJ

where will the pandemic for the H1N5 occur?

save the whales
please

2005-10-16T05:24:00.000-07:00

Hades

kinda true

as i leave cat high
i definitely would miss

2703
all the times we had when we were little kiddies
all the jokes/bitching/5mins non stop laughter we had
all the criticisism we had of teachers
our chalets
all the fun we had during them
our times at leow
breakfast in the early morning
our little/big quarrels
tan sook yee and her "im gonna tell u a joke now... blah blah blah... HAHAHHA... dun u find it funny???"
pang and her rambling wif all the lights off
chow lin meow and his FA QIAN and never teach anything
mrs ong and her GOOD MORNING CRASS
chang hong and his POSIVE and NETIVE

4805
we only gelled nicely together
well most of us
at the last 2/3 terms of our sec 4
at least we did have fun
less hypocriticism
more true friendship
alot of insignificant pple
tt lessens our class to say abt 17 pple or so
our teachers
out teachers
the times we had wif our teachers

no more qouting chung
no more laughing wif llp
no more making fun of krishnan or seeing her world class acting
no more crazy danny
NO MORE GOH HOCK MENG YES YES YES YES YES YES!!!!
no more kind/nice peck eng

i'll also miss all the other friends i made
i'll miss my germany trip
my lit class and all the stupid stuff we did there
making fun of pearl and her gummy smile
i'll miss the times the sch had wif mrs goh

life at cat high was not measured by the length of the stay
but by the depth of which it impacted us

gong jiao wan shui

2005-10-02T07:01:00.000-07:00

if ur wondering why i havent blogged for a long time... its cos of the recent arrests and coming to light of how pple haf been taking "obtrusive" blog contents and blaming the innocent bloggers even punishing them for their own right to thought...

the issue was so hot
i let it sizzle
soon the flames was doused
and now i can blog again
YIPPEE YAHOO

well... prepared for prelim
bleagh
its true
wooerk
im serious
poot poot

and went into the cold hall
wif chocolates and candy bars
to haf my daily dose of picknicks
and fun screwing up the papers
writing bitching stuff onto the papers
wait till its the go thru paper time
u'll haf another version of
some of u think my picture is not beautiful enough so u go and draw on it

well tts all said and done
after the last paper
go lan
sat go some dumb kiddy paradise
and sort of RELIeVED my childhood
never had so much fun humiliating myself
and sun lanned again and pooled
someone tell me fun was assetially vampiric earlier next time
im broke get it... im broke
still ask me go 70th aniversary dinner...

isit worth sitting abt 10 metres away from the spastic looking goh for 30 bucks???
and eating SHITFOOD
lhb probably told the neptune theatre to keep all their scraps since last yr... then tt nite throw all into a frying pan and fry for us... oh the food's sumptious... delectable(to cockroaches)... wide variety(of cos lar add all sorts of shit inside)... palatable... succulent(add water)... mouth watering(make us shock until we open mouth cannot close)... but we cant haf wine... juz go for fun of it lar... its ok to waste cash on the fucking stupid school...

2005-09-03T08:38:00.000-07:00

i dont noe abt the other guys
but whenever im like so sian
i take a good look at my blog pic
and i mean a GOOD look
scrutinising each and every character
and then i tend to smile

well blog proper
to clear up some doubts
i didnt say some ccb PRINTED my blog
but we dont noe do we?
it clda?
it cldnt?
but juz take note
tt it can

and the numbers
3 weeks time is prelim2
3 weeks from there is O level
not so much mapling
not so much slacking
not so much attitude not serious
but more of lost heart
there aint any interest left in real studying
the school killed it

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood,
and I-I took the one less traveled by,
but you wont nor ever shall will
And that has made all the difference.

2005-09-01T03:35:00.000-07:00

it was kinda nice going back to rosyth
got to see tt fucker siva
didnt see the khoo khoo seng
didnt tok to them long though
then the ms jiau
the bb in charge
came
remember joel and david
didnt remember me
made us HUG her and say happy tday to her
traumatising
hugging a fat piece of blubber
*urgh pui pui woooeeerk

well saw quite a few old frens...
very undecided back there
walk here walk there
the guys didnt really toked to the girls
neither did the girls really toked to the guys
and i was the middleman
so i was pushed here and there
then wanted to see show
but melvin cldnt
wanted to play lan
but daniel and chuankai dont
so went to play pool
wif a team singapore player
had problem wif uniform
but tks to our smart brains
we got thru
but wif some embarrassing stints
i think i was the suckiest
but didnt think tt tuan dan and yixiang sucked wif me
well so we played pool
but for only awhile
but it was nice
when will i see them again

if only it last longer...

and heard tuan maybe going dubai
forever
i was damn sad
but nice of him to walk wif me to busstop
quite weird to cry also...

2005-08-27T03:24:00.000-07:00

today quite happy
and also quite pissed

firstly
went to guitar class
teacher say course officially end next month
but we finish syllabus le
so i start new one
but fees same
following month then officially start
see how gd i am
and now muz take guitar exam
ARGHHHH

secondly
read this abstract

"hey darry.. wanted to apologise to you earlier but im afraid tt u wld still be angry with me..sorry for tearing up ur pack of cookies n oso sorry 4 throwin e money at u tt day.. i really apologise for my actions and really hope tt u will forgive me.. sorry..

i asked
wad or who was the prompt
in my bid to find out
what sparked off the apology

"prompt? myself.. i didnt apologise to u earlier cos i think tt u wld still be very angry with me sorry...

after reading all the above
doesnt one get the feel
its but rather well rehearsed
too well rehearsed for that matter
giving the feel
that it wld happen again
and tt it has happened but too many times b4
so much so hes soooo familiar wif the way things shd go
also
it gives the feel that
he wont change
he will still do such things
and i/other pple will get
such an apology

lets analyse in detail

u want to apologise... scared tt im angry... u made me angry... wads there to be scared off...

not only was the actions part of the pissification... how abt ur words... ur tone... ur expressions...

its too easy to apologise doesnt it... tts the feeling its giving me... do something that hurts other people... wait a few days... until someone else say oh darryls agry wif u... then *snap and send the sms

how come u find urself sorry now... but not when u were throwing ur cash like spitting saliva???

then... muz be someone tell u... or u read my blog or something... well i noe i can be mean and take ur whole family to scold... it jus doesnt sound sincere... why apologise for throwing money at me... when u cld blatantly do so tt time and not feel tt it was wrong...

times the best healer they say
but we all die in time to come

and the "teacher" saga
never ends it seems
came to class
gif out result slip
gif out in the buay song attitude
take and slam on table
then say
u shd be happy
its all ur own efforts
sounds like a compliment
but wasnt meant to be so
then later scold scold scold
for wad???
we didnt do anything criminal
we didnt eat too much
we didnt slack so much
we didnt fuck someone
we didnt scold u
we didnt crave over nicols crumbler or zzys billas
we didnt want them either
nor did we not want to say sorry IF we did wrong
NONE
absolutely none of the 7 deadly sins
why scold us???
bcos u think we not appreciative of u enuff???
fuck the fuck off lar
so wad abt the inspiring teachers awards?
its a fluke
its by hak boon
wadya expect
its only plutonium for u
to throw atomic bombs at us
doesnt serve any other purpose
say u hate us did u not?
why put our class pic on ur whiteboard at ur table?
not taking it down
and beheading each and everyone of us
say ur other students haf bigger hearts?
say u didnt want us to spoil ur tday?
say if we gracious enuff we wont?
say tt we werent even human b4 didnt u?
so deem it ur tday be spoilt
well as for wadever else u scolded
i wasnt really listening
cos im kinda like used to u pmsing for no bloody fuck
menopausal i keep telling meself
and yeah
im leaving chs soon
who cares
SURE
FINE
who cares
u still haf ur decades of students who MAY care
u still haf ur guang hong
u still haf alice and mel
why care abt us
well then
dun at all
but at least when ur dying
take a mirror and look at urself
and die in peace

well i be buying other prezzies for my teachers
those who are nicer
SOOO MUCH NICER

2005-08-23T04:17:00.000-07:00

ok firstly... the part abt
ALVIN TOH CHIN LEONG
is utterly and grossly FAKE
to all the asses who believed it
i meant other stuff
and some CCBs probably printed it
and showed it to the actual toh
but to think abt it...
it sounds kinda befitting for him
as for all surnames
asses that give the same shit kinda
live in the same toilet
well LIKE I CARE
PRINT WAD U LIKE

if only the oral wasnt so frightening
where got ask 5 qns one
no one ever said it b4
the opinion is split
u did too well
they liked to hear ur intelligent responses
they kept asking
to confirm the full marks

u did too badly
they kept prompting u
to gif u another chance
to redeem urself

now if tts not frightening
wad is???
alvin toh coming up to me
and saying hes not called alvin?
with a copy of my blog in hand
printed by some CCB???

who noes???

2005-08-18T06:44:00.000-07:00

todays a bad day... really bad day

first up... morning assembly go for chess prize presentation... dunnoe wad the bloody sec 3 excos doing... dunnoe it was prize presentation or was fishmongers bidding for fishes.... can invite hod to present prize and ask pple go up w/o anyone to gif out prize... then take le... go back and stand... worse still... first team go up was wrong... then they stood there like mannequins... so cock lar... then i ask if there was order... say got... then i ask whos taking first... dunnoe... its with tt guy... fark lar... where got gif prize never brief those faggarts first... then i was so fucked up... gif out one cca the prize... need david chen... almon yao and saras help to organise those faggarts... tell u tts what happens when u let pple like yonghua and jiaxin be presidents... u get successors who cant even cut paper... worse still... my president now is joshua teng,.. exco in students council too... he cant even staple paper lar... really embarrrass chung... then i shouted at them in front of her lar... so pai seh... in front of all the exexcos who were higher than me and the new one... juz shout at them lar... in front of the aforementioned teachers too... they need more of those... not nw... but before... then they will be better... but... tts what u get wif those asses who sucked up to tan sook yee...

then after school... now this is the crucial one... i didnt eat luncch... go buy the famous anus cookies back to class... left it unopen on my table... then some fucker came up... say... gimme one... take the whole thing go back his table... and OPENED my packet of famous anus... then i snatched it back... and kp abit... then he start shouting... then i also start shouting... and krishnan outside... then later he say... big deal... at most i pay u back lar... THEN HE TAKE 2 DOLLARS THROW AT MY FACE...

now if u noe me well... i can take all sorts of criticism but NEVER SLAP ME ACROSS MY FACE WIF MONEY... for fucks sake tts not even urs lar... u didnt earn it.. its ur dads... i dun care how much he threw at my face... i dun care if its 1 million dollars or if its one billion dollars or its bill gates u throw at me... i juz take bill gates and stuff him up ur ass... of cos i threw back the 2 bucks at him and ask him to get lost... i mean... u think u damn rich huh???
for fucks sake u live only in a 3 room hdb and i live in a 5 room condominium... highest normal apartment unit if u wanna compare... my dads the boss of some company in sg and ur dads juz a manager... compare wad shit... ur moms a hswife... my moms working... u wanna compare money?>?? u probably exhausted ur bank acc buying poser shit that u haf... for fucks sake... wads in my bank acc easily doubles or triples or even quadruples urs lar... i think can even 9taple urs lar ass... and u wanna throw money at me...

u think that... oh i take ur stuff... spoil it... at most pay lar... fine if u offer to pay and say sorry... fine even if u shout and the apology sounded insincere... NEVER THROW MONEY AT MY FACE... its like... for fucks sake... the stuffs mine.. ask for permission first... if i say no... dun even touch it... and even if u take it and spoil it i still can forgive and forget... now im never gonna tok to u again... dun even dare say hi... tao u for the rest of my life...

and tts why i rather make friends wif pple who are poor and humble... most richies tend to strut their money... and the worse is those who are poorer than i am yet act richer... i really dunnoe where he learnt his human principles... its like... u take X dollars slap my left cheek... fine... if its earned by u... BUT TAKE NOTE... if u take X dollars and slap my left cheek... im gonna take 2X dollarses in my left and right hand and slap both ur cheeks... then i will dig into my pockets and take some coins and stuff them up ur nose... then if im a doctor i will gif u plastic surgery FOC for the damage i done...

this type of pple... be nice to u only when noone ard and he needs company... otherwise... he turn his face as easily as he farts... see he makes a name for himself b4 he comes to tok to me...

2005-08-12T07:32:00.000-07:00

today lets tok abt mr toh... i juz found out... HIS NAME IS ALVIN TOH CHIN LEONG...

so mr alvin...

at first mr lee come to cat high... still can... though alot things change... but bcos of alvins relations wif mr lee... he also come... he think he boss... he do wadever he wants... he never think abt the ABORIGINALs who were in cat high for like so fucking long liaoz... alvin u ass.... look like a pig... tok like a pig... think like a pig...suck like a pig... suck UP like a pig... everyone hates u... maybe not mrlee... but still u shdnt use ur gd relations wif mrlee to FRIEND ur way wif the rest of the cat high pple... and tt is why alot of gd cat high teachers LEFT... or are LEAVING... juz wait alvin... u will see...

and also the rest of the agenda...

got back e maths... 90%... tts not too bad... and is also damn bad... i aint the top... well... not that it matters to u... not to mrlee... not to alvin toh... not to anyone... maybe chung... I WAN TOP SCHOLARS FROM MY CLASS... but well...

then go collect cl o level results... at first the chua sok ling gif us the stats tt time... still got so much mood to bitch... alvin also had his stupid mood to do his lame piggalicious shenanigans... like probably tok to mrlee whos in china getting more of those asses u saw at speech day... the bakahliaoz type... then come lame at us... WELL THE RESULTS ARE... OH SORRY IM THE HEAD OF DISCIPLINE NOT HEAD OF CHINESE... SO I HAF TO LET THE HOD CL DO THE HONOURS... "SMILES"... pig... smile lar...

that whole time... the 40% distinction was floating in my head... another 35% b3... and the csl can still say WE DID BETTER THAN LAST YR... fine... then i was like... the 35 %... im in there...

then go take results from ah meng... wah lao... he also has his matteroffactly look... as if the world can crumble and nothing will happen to him... look at us like still so damn the normal like tt... JI BEN SHANG... NI MEN BAN KAO DAO BU CUO... fuck lar... wads tt got to do wif us... bu cuo and retaking is like damnt he linkiful lar... dun tell us this crap... doesnt make us feel any better... then say oh
60% kao dao distinction
OMG... tts like 6 of us... i was like... shit... in my class... the lousiest in chinese only the 4 of us...

me shaun alvin and joel... the rest damn gd one... yunle is mug alot... david is forever gd at chinese... jerrick is mug alot too... the rest are forever distinction...

then when he came to my name... i was like... shit its a B... then he say A... i juz screamed and ran into the hall door... sooooooooooo embarassing... 42 was like... whole bunch look at me... bala lean on piano also look at me and smile like fuck... i was like... how come i get A... tt can never be true lar...

i was like so fucking shocked... i didnt noe wad to do... i was like... ok go home try to settle down first... then i was like... hwo abt the rest... sms and sms... everyone i know b3... and im like... 2.... where did that come from... its like... the whole of 42 work damn hard one lar... they really studied like fuck one lar... smae as those from 47... and i didnt... but i got a 2... where did that come from... then after mapling awhile then i sorta recovered abit... its like... ALOT PPLE GOT DISTINCTION FOR ORAL LAR... either the examiners were tooooooooooo fucking kind... or well... cat high guys practise it often... WHICH MAKES IT EVEN EASIER TO RETAKE... and i was like... 2 distinction... OMG... i shda bang harder and fainted

2005-08-08T06:01:00.000-07:00

esplanade... finally get to shake mrs gohs hand... yay... tt was the after party... yay... hmm...

concert sucks... its like sooooooooooo mystifying sooooooooooo enchanting sooooooooooo magical soooooooooooooo sleepyfull.... hear already slp... as usual... wear my longsleeves to such stupid events... but this time dif... got bring alogn cap... TO HIDE FROM PPLE... see pple... bow head and pretned never see... BUT NOT ALL TEACHERS WERE THERE... which sucks...

best dress shd be krishnan... SO oriental some chinese traditional ... then FIST TIME CARRY HAND BAG... cheapskate lousy one... unlike the other tai tais there... then wear HIGH HEELS some more... wah first time so woman... haha

nice seeing frens ard too... but didnt get to see tt much... stupid group i came along wif... cant control themselves... play so much lan... walk so slow... if not go earlier can see more pple... but theres still some joy in which... big group walk along paths... block ehre block there... amke so much noise...

when reach esplanade... well... everything so cheap... luckily got to see a fwe pple... mostly equiped wif their "accessories"... yeah... and alot posers too...

ok lar... not so much in the mood for strong criticism... so move on...

national day and speech day...

juz a waste of time lar... stupid emcees in the morning... cant even get the crowd to sing along... still need to get teachers to chu zhao...

so er... took prize from bala 2X... who the hell is she... then me class making dog whistles... and applauding like mad... and some other class try to compete wif us... never mind lar... let them haf their 15 seconds of fame... LITERALLY... how many times can they cheer??? how long can they cheer each time???

well... 25 bucks pop voucher... ew... can even buy a harry potter... then while waiting and waiting for event to end... sit there bitching wif rayston and kenny... and tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok toktoktoktkok... everyone else so damn quiet... us toktoktotkotktkkotktokotkotkotkotkot... then after event... bala say... if ur hairstyle is like mine... u either tie it up or get it cut... mmmm... rite.... eng prelim soon... getting back cl os... well.... i dun mind settling for a C... its expected... to think abt how i screw some sections... actually i rather dont know... i rather ah meng juz keep it wif him... chung'll be damn sad.... WAD HAPPEN TO MY 100% DISTINCTION???

yeah wad abt it???

2005-07-29T00:28:00.000-07:00

well first week over... damn fun... monday dun need go sch... so at home like try to study the stupid ss... in the end... watch bleach whole day... at nite try to study... as usual... cannot study... ss is one topic tt cannot be studied... the info is damn wrong... is so ballardy off lar... then i was like fuck it lar... of cos previous week play less... tried to study more... but somehow someway somewhere someone will juz from wadever hes studying diffuse to take some maths book out to study... so... for me its like... revise maths damn fast one... flip thru can le... but then i was like... haiya prob a little bit more lar... try doing the questions mentally... and like the ballardy textbooks and ten year series,.,. so simple lar... to me like mental sums... then got one day... i took out my c maths for the dunnoe how manyeth time and studied it again... and for the dunnoe how manyeth plus one time i studied c maths finish... then sian... no more maths... fine take c maths ten year series... fucking hell... again like mental sums... flip flip flip... and all damn boring... c maths the formulas v interesting... but the questions they ask so sian... then for the dunnoe how manyeth time as well... i take out the e maths tys do the seires... its fun cos get to think... v maths olympiadish... v fun... then on monday... so sian... all the maths like got study b4... so i took out my maths olympiad stuff and do and read a little... oh i forgot to mention... f maths is not maths... so dun bother asking... f maths is more of physics... and now its scraped... h3 maths does not include the f maths syllabus... i so feel like going poly take engineering maths... more like fun... maybe one day i go nyp and buy tt text... well... so much for monday...

lets go back in time... sunday... went for chess competition... am i mad or am i cock... next week prelims still go play chess... then dunnoe why also... 6 months never play... never even train... go chess... wanna die huh... then as usual lar... go there... sian sian... wait and wait... at least im not someone who goes sian sian sian whole day... well... go chess.... only 6 months never play suddenly got so many new players... and the rest are the old farts lar... so play wif same old pple as well wif so many new sluts... gd and new... then in the end... 10TH position.... under 16 FIRST... tts so much for nott playing 6 months...

tues e maths so simple... only my vectors so fugly... er... ss haiya... auntie ego mouth leak qns like her rotten vagina like tt... then er... found yanshen... yay... j lau pang seh me... dunnoe where she died to... luckily got yanshen... then study srilanka and n ireland wif her... see how she criticise the blacks... and oh IRA stopped their armed conflict yesterday... can u believe it... they stopped again... and pple treated it like big news... shown live on cnn... cnbc and bloomberg... flipping channels saw the fucking northern ireland president gloating over tt fact... like damn fun like tt... tonite gloat tmr shoot someone... whole day in the news.... get to make alot speeches... dumbass...

so wed and thurs slack at home... so shiok... yeah rite... still needed to go back sch... BUT tts gd... go staff room at exam period also very fun one... not only do students seh diao... teachers also...

hmmm... chung and alice came back from lunch... wo de ban zhe mo yang ar??? ni de ban ar... ni de ban you bu shi suo hen fantastic... awww too bad... *looks at sky as if never see tt its blue b4... then alice giggling... mel giggling... chung showing some sky is blue look... then i down there... oh im transparent lar... i ate glass grow up one...

toking to peck peck... mel come up to me... are u prepared for lit??? yeah... ARE U SURE U ARE PREPARED??? peck peck... yeah of cos hes prepared... hes always prepared... hahahahaha.... mel hahahahaha.... luckily peck peck is there... or else mel dunnoe how she slaughter me le... bleagh.... then the anna mark maths mark until so fucked up.... throw pen at table... HMPF... stand up and walk out of staffroom...

thurs maths so no standard... peck peck boasting abt the series qn... say wad... oh its a big question.... i showed it to the other setter... she said was quite difficult... dunnoe how to do... until i explained it to her... then she understood... hao lian to us tt her qn so difficult tt even alice cldnt do lar... fine... the moment she say start... i flip to series qn and finished it in less than 5 minutes... its like soooooooooooooo fucking easy... its toooooooooooooooooooooo simple le... and overally the paper also soooooooooooooooooooo fucking easy lar... if got prelim 2 i set lar... its like.... u think abt it... 100 marks.... and how many marks is nto easy to get??? abt 10-20??? take average... 15... 100-15still got 85... WHICH IS A FUCKING A1... wth... shd make until 50 marks dif to get... then u will see whos your daddy... i was sooooooooooooooooo pissed wif them i decided to zeesiao them....

i wrote on one side of the paper only... i made sure my answers like model answer like tt... present damn nice... include answer statement... include everything lar.... then keep asking for paper... bala came wif one stack... one hand take one wanna gif me... i took the other stack in her other hand... wann juin u bitch... paper so expensive isit... come ask for 2 ask me why need so many... its juz a few pieces of paper... krishnan came... i say need alot... she laff how many??? i was like... alot lar... then she gave 2 only... another stingy bitch... and wad... i spent so much time doing so nicely... and still finished paper with like more than one and half hour to check... tts like how no standard the paper is...

lit... pearls a bitch lar... where got unseen so ununderstandble one... flip both also cannot understand a single shit... wad rain horse... one stupid horse running abt... one man dunnoe doing wad... then wad 5 ways to kill a man... pls lar... there are many ways to kill u lar... dun need gif us inspirtaion...

and somepple i wanna thank

chua sok ling... paper start... u come late... KIK KOK KIK KOK KIK KOK KIK KOK.... u think so hip ar... i doing paper halfway... u come kik kok... i was like TSK... and the hall like so quiet... and i like tsk soooooooooooooooo loud... everyone ard me heard lar... then i pretend sky is blue also... learn from chung... and continue wif my model answer...

pereira... yeah tks for coming to check my answers and then go check zzk ones...
tks for praying nonsense as well...

mel tks for kik koking during the lit paper also... tks for spraying pesticide on urself too... smells great...

suah yee leng...i noe u damn fat lar... pls dun go bang one whole row table down during lit paper...

major ng u also... how dare u do construction during the lit paper... off air con some more.. always u noe...

then i was like... so pissed... dun wan wet my scripts from my sweaty palms... so i took 2 tables and 2 chairs lor... a bitch never changes its sluttiness... i was like do lit unseen halfway... totally cant stand it... sit there eat mentos... then the pearl was like glearing at me... then later dare to point at me... then ask suah yee leng look some more... fine... mian qiang write one more paragraph...so anyhow lar...

well... next week wld be better lar...

2005-07-15T01:41:00.000-07:00

okee... investiture...

so early morning go there... rehearsal... yay yippee yahooo weee...

" jing tian you wo officially take over"

dammit... tt spells trouble... wadya expect from toh... he came in... and said tt... so we start... so i started from "a very gd afternoon to our goh" then the saras straight away came... how come u never ask sch to stand up and welcome him??? oh i was asked to start from here... oh ok... its ok as long as its not ur fault... first bitching...

then continue... watch i movie... then curtains close... then sec 4 go up stage... tmd... the sec 4s screw up... tt blardy toh... LEONG AR... LEONG AR... wei shen mo ze yang... ta men ying gai zuo shen mo??? wei she mo guang zong zai deng??? wei she mo wo ting bu dao ni de sheng ying??? tmd... sec 4 student leaders screw up scold me... fine ren...

then redo... redo redo redo and redo redo redo redo redo... whole procedure... he whole day LEONG AR LEONG AR LEONG AR LEONG AR... never say jion chun or marvin or wayne or jonathan... ONLY ME... so fucking bias lar... dun scold his student leaders but scold me... then whole day ask me procedures and all... fucking hell... im only an emcee... not the organiser...

then the singing part... saras came up... wnated to take mic... snatch from me... then u noe i got sweaty palms one... which pple say not good for... then she snatch and turn to the sec3s and wanted to open mic and scold... then she finally held it properly... felt tt its wet... turn back and stare at me... oh im sorry i got sweaty palms... then she held the mic by the mic ball... IF U DUN MOVE OR IF U DUN SING DURING UR PERFORMANCE... I WILL PERSONALLY GO UP AND SLAP YOU... then u noe she tok got the funny peking kao ya accent... then she say the slap u.,.. all the SLs were like... i want to laff... but cannot... firstly u say until so funny... then ur face also look like shit... so muz laff but cannot... haiz... xing ku...

then b4 show start... ALGENE u fucking bastard... open door and show me good sign... then i ask audience to stand... then u wave the no no no no wave to me and hide behind the door... fuck u lar... saras u too... hide until the darkest corners of the back stage... leave me in the lurch... fuck u both... lucky i came up wif a lame excuse...

then while waiting for the goh to come in... the photographers take pic of me... the fucking DAVID CHEN... oi why take picture of them... take picture of me lar... then i was like... its so obvious i more sexy handsome and photogenic than u tts why they take me lar... why cant u juz get tt into ur think old rotting head and fuck off... i was like abt to throw the mic at him lar... so bhb one...

then the cmc... so asshole... oh 2 pple not here.,... juz read their names... juz read??/ after i read sch so urgh one... so i was like... lets give them a round of applause anyway... its like a game show and they lost... oh they done well to come here... but not enufff to proceed... lets gif them applause anyway...

then got 2 sections... the blardy jon lau... never include in the fucking script u gave me... make me go up there and tok crap.... really cant stand myself lor... so crap lar... the link between the scenes were very suitable... and im so fascinated by that... wah lao... total embarrassment lar... then still got wad... danny tan win most humourous... then later he come tell me... U GOT MY AWARD WRONG.... i won most jovial... so lame lar...

best is invite the father... may we now invite... suddenly curtains from behind close... something hit me in the back... so i was like FUCK... so the whole thing sounded... MAY WE NOW INVITE FUCK... then i pretend turn around... then turn back... may we now invite FUCKter blah blah blah...

of cos tt didnt happen lar... but the saras... omg the goh is sooooooooooo old... u better stand behind him... in case he faint and dun ever wake up... oh i heard the fathers prayer is gonna take 5 mins... im gonna slp... wake me up when hes done... then i was like... huhhhhhhhhh 5 mins.... then her face suddenly become so distorted... look like a pig having constipation... yeah lar the stupid fatehr.... wads therer to pray abt..., ok./..

at the end... bobby came... oi tell the blardy fff fff fff fff farts go get off the stage and stop making so much noise...ok... so i tell... then he snatch my mic... then i was like...oi i haf one more thing to say... so i called him... mr yong.... no reply... mr yong... louder... still no reply... he tao me... BOBBY... then he finally turn around... wad does this say abt himj.... i really dun noe...

then tts the end of investiture... yay... finally no more toh going LEONG AR... its like... tts my name lar... darryl leong ar kah ming... its like... in cantonese... darryl 2 ducks house name... wah lame... hate toh forever...

2005-07-08T04:42:00.000-07:00

well oral was fucked up... juz failed...

then go play tennis today... wee... woohoo... so fun... so many years never play le... today get to play... some more wif 2 pros... yippee...

ok so chung so damn PMS these few days... bcos of which... pple not getting their awards... zzy not getting his colours... i dun think i be getting my service... sucks to haf form teacher as cca teacher... ass monitor resigned... then now i think she faking mc... to qoute her... if u dun haf it... dun fake it... u dun haf any sickness... dun FAKE IT FOR FUCK'S SAKE U BITCH...

well... mmhmm... *clears throat*... as i was saying... u think we dun appreciate u enuff... fine... then dun be our form teacher lar... pple snatch i tell u...

again so... prelims coming rite... fail all for u to see... at most first 3 months become relief teacher... mwahhahahahahah mwahhahahahahah...

2005-06-22T07:24:00.000-07:00

as the vehicles go past, dragging along their choking fumes, the hazy morning doused everybodys spirits, veiling the sun, damping the brightness. and there i stood, wif a new haircut, waiting, posing, waiting, it was a day we were going to lose big time, it was a day faces will be thrown.

proceeded to sg sci centre the mac there... ate breakfast... waited some more... then cjs called... say yun le and i coming le... but we were juz behind the wall... then we wrapped up our breakfast and took a detour to seem as if we juz came... then as usual someone didnt come lar... call tt someone up...

hello where u? oh i told jeffrey i will not be going... what... jeffreys overseas... tell him for wad now nobody here except the two of them... even yun le's not here... how can u like not come...then why didnt u tell me yesterday... errr.... then u leh? why u not there... u also never wad... orh... i overs lept... i at leow now... wad... u go leow and never come here.... ok lor.... ... ...

sms: i rushing to ntu in a taxi now... we kenna dq u dun ever come and tok to me anymore
after lunch: yun les there lar... yeah he came late

got this type of attitude ar...bloody hell put ur fucking name on the list and u can dun turn up... so wad if u tell jeffrey... huh so wad... oh u are a reserve... dun haf to turn up... its only the main 3 tts doing all the work anyway... ok lor... so if theres a prize to win u wont get it too rite... its only the main 3 tt deserves it anyway... its like for fucks sake... so wad if u are a reserve... so wad if u haf tuition... dont i haf it too fucker...

go ntu... told by the professors we be building an aeroplane made of wood... wow... then go the faculty... see the hod... professor SHAKER... school of material engineering and aeronautics... then he bring us inside some lab... inside all the fucking airplane parts... so wtf lor... then he say... this is a new school... open next year... this lab be used by students next year...wow... then im like seeing it now... then he bring us ard tell us abt all the fucking airplane parts... its like so OMG lor... then later he say... we be building a hanger... wif 20 supporting aeronautic lab... WTF... then we go some briefing... abt the competition... brief brief... tell us we muz build some airplabne... and muz fly far and stay aloft long... then muz also fly straight... ok... wadever... then they say... we prepared a hall for u... we prepared A hall for u... wtf... its not like.. we prepared the hall for u... its A hall... omg

then go the hall... its not some cheapskate one like whitely... nor is it a cheaperskater one like chs... its really damn nice... the hall is damn nice...

then go our stations... yay got wood... got glue... the glue is wad u noe not... its a fucking million times stronger than superglue... and... its kept in a plastic squeezer bottle... and inside its like water... but when oxidised... its like... stuck to ur skin... bai bai...

then got penknife... for wad??? cut saw chop wood... omg... then the bloody mediacorp... film film film...

we were at first suppose to use some programme and put in our measurements of the plane... and let it scientifically count if it can fly... the bloody cai jia shen... its like hes worse than a cockroach crawling on me lar... its like... no muz make this muz make tt... then me and zhongkun like damn diao like tt... at first still can bitch wif him... say wad take hose and put up his ass and switch it to full blast... but later cant stand him... in front of camera there... DUN COCK LAR... FUCK OFF LAR... SHUT THE HELL UP... point middle finger... pro liaoz... posing in front of camera... shirt tuck out... cursing like hell... then the cjs... really cant stand him... he cant carry out a convo wif u one... he has no toking skills at all... and his face is more than slappable... but u shant dirty ur fingers... then bcos of him we took an hour on the bloody stupid software... later we found out... the other teams also... so nvm... not so bad... ren... but if not for him we build le lar...

ok then start building... omg we first team to start building... does this mean we lack planning... then the fucking media corp... oh theres a team building.. lets all rush there to see tehm build... then tmd... we start "sawing" the wood... tehn all 6 cameras filming... then its like penknife... and wood... and penknife and wood... and they were filimign... like so pai seh lar... all cannot cut one...

then later i start sanding... then tmd... all 6 rush back again... film me sand wood... then got one ass... ah boy ar... can sand wif ur other hand not... i wan to film... SORRY... IM RIGHT HANDED... bitch lar...

then the bloody cjs... he put so many inputs into the bloody comp... he make all the measurements...oh make measurements they also wan film... mad corp lar... then he make all the markings... then need join wood together rite... ok... he open one glue... say the opening too small... cannot squeeze out... for fucks sake its precisely bcos the bloody glue is so sticky tts why the opening muz be small... tt smart ass use penknife cut... cut le spill all over table... win le... then the bloody madcorp still filming... then we banish him... tell him dun touch glue... then i open the other glue... squeeze on the wood.... then say quick paste paste paset... and the fucking cjs muz pste in front of the marking instead of behind the marking... and best thing is he made those fucking markings... then tts it... hes banished forever... zzk and i dun let him touch anything... only can pick plane

for tt i had to dirty my hands wif the fucking glue... and make things rite... my purpose was to pose... and let them do all the work... now i had to doubel my chores... to pose as well as to do work.... fuck tt veg lar...

then later build finish... go test... the bloody cjs... release the plane tt time... i dunnoe how he release one... the plane suppose to fly straight... hes juz drop down like tt... wtf... bimbo lar he... its ilke hes body twisted like banana le... head still wanna tilt like a sagging boob... then release tt time omg... plane juz crash lar... zzk makinng the angle to release... and the veg juz crash the plane like tt lar... shit lar... then ew keep testing and testing and make him pick planes...

then later judgng.... as usual we lost... but got some answer and questino session... wif the judges and again 6 cameras filimng.... then they make me impromptu... ok lor... anyhow cock wif judges... keep filiming me one... cant stand it... then the camera... so funny one... dunnoe which part of the camera to look at... then i answer question tt time like doing advertisement... show off my product and explain why its so gd... pls lor... sell at pasamalam 2 for -10 dollars only termites will want... then lose le... the fucking professor shaker say oh the teams scored points tt were very close... we had ties actually... but bcos its a comp... we need to decide winner... ok... we last we last lar... dun need to put it util so nice like tt... shit lar u shaker...

next round im gonna make cat high lose... so i can study for prelims and dun need to film wif tt veg anymore... can u believe it not... zzk is soooooooooooooo much better than tt veg lar...

like planes? EVERY PART OF A PLANE IS A DEFECT... ALL U HAF TO DO IS TO HOPE ITS NOT DEMATORY... wadever tt means... professor shaker... head of department... school of material engineering and aeronautics NTU

2005-06-19T22:01:00.000-07:00

very long havent cook le... then got one nite... i takboleh tahan... go and cook...

ever since this new maid come... she slp inside my storeroom... juz beside the kitchen...so i i wanna cook... she sure wake up... so i xing luan lar... every nite try my mighty hardest not to cook.... these maids will sue u for some mandatory ear rapes one lar... so cannot... muz not cook... so this month been steaming paos... cooking maggi mee... frying eggs... for supper... nothing fantastic... nothing to really practice my skills in... then got one nite... really cant stand it...

its like... if i dun cook bcos of tt fag... its wrong... so i always make excuse... mushroom looks mutated... garlic too small... onion too oniony... rice too weevillish... noodle too wormy... gross thougths to keep my mind off food...

then tt nite i go cook... haf all the ingredients... except garlic... garlic too small... u noe garlic rite.. the outside of the bulb is tua tua one... the middle inside... is smaller than ur nipples tt type... then cannot find anymore garlic... so use those lor...

then learn guitar cannot keep long nails for left hand... so cutted... then if wanna cook... if right hander... left nails muz be long... or else rite hand cut garlic... left hand peel nothing... tts for small garlics... cannot peel a single shit... then i was like peeeling 8 of those small balls... peel untyil hand pain... then i say... cannot... maybe got some slightly bigger ones inside the box... so open... and then... right infront of mine eyes... an unopen packet of bulbous garlics... why didnt i see them in the first palce... muz be some lizard took it away... purposely wanna zhen me one... then later put back... so wif big garlics... very easy le... cut the bottom... then using the big fat chooper blade... u slam it ontot the garlic... PIAK... PIANG... the garlic is smashed... the skin can be taken off like tt... dun need peel... then dun need waste time cut garlic too... gd skill??? bet alot pple dun noe how to cut garlic one... haha

then cut onions... nothing special abt cutting oninos... so are sausages and mushrooms... then go fry them... then found out NO OIL... wtf... the oil barrel in the storeroom... and the fucking fag slping there... if i go take... suddenly fall... YAY...

so improvise... i open the fridge and used margarine... eeeeewwwwww... then cook le... still taste as gd... even better than the fucking fag who cooks all the time and no standard in the food one... unlike me... once in a red moon cook and still tastes gd...

then later go take water... wtf... lizard jump on my hand... drop the cup... PIANG PIAK PING PONG POOM... whole house wake up... go back to dota...

well the hols was exciting enuff... too exciting until i cannot put my heart down to study... thing is... nothign much to study... everything inside my head le... or so it seems... can do test and score distinctino without studying... so means dun ever need to study one... but theres hw... and alot of which... still got some since last yr one lor... ... ...

looking forward to the filming... going to show the world how spastic pple from cat high are... immagine me beside zzk... cjs... urgh... uuuueeeeack.... uuuueeeeaaaccckkk.... they gonna do everything and im gonna do nothing but look into camera and smile ^-^

2005-06-14T22:47:00.000-07:00

ok last nite played dota... then later cannot slp... as usual... so go make supper... then channel surf... then realised i missed my one tree hill... bloody hell... waited one month for it... and the first episode i missed... wtf... all bcos of dota... now every nite cannot dota le... muz not... its evil... its satanic... its sinfull...u noe i waited one whole month for it lor... and if wait for ch5 to show... it be like next yr lar... and sensored until might as well dun watch le lar... then... omg... bloody dota...

lucky got miss universe... let me laff a bit at how dumb they can be... national costume... some pple wear until really... dun noe whether its national costume or whether they are clowns... some national costume... wad mermaid... tmd...take 2 seashells cover her boobs... sliding along on the floor... then the brazil... IM A PEACOCK... SEE ME STRUT MY TAIL FEATHERS... CAW CAW CAW... then wear 2 piece... but got a huge HUGE HUGE fan stuck up her ass... dunnoe how she can strut along wif tt lar... its like... if its attached to her "pant" sure drop one... then still got some is a flower... USA wad cowgirl... wear until the skirt is as big as my bed tt type lar... block pples path... africa take leopard skin and cover... jamaica take dried grass and cover... china bao the cheong sam bao until so ba chang like tt... why... pple the dress is like 10 pple can wear at same time one lar... the china so stingy... then even better... singapore... kua bo... never even show... wtf...

then the winner of national costume... thailand... tmd... gif face one... i mean if the thai bitch wore like those dancers... wif long LONG fingernails enuff to pierce u and a pagoda on her head... wif all tt sparkling gold on her boobs and all the bangles and chains and all tt... ok fine... the judges were bedazzled... BUT THE BITCH WEAR AS IF SHE WAS SOME HOUSEWIFE WASHING CLOTHES AT THE RIVER KWAI I SAW WHEN I WAS IN THAILAND LAR... wad the fuck... like tt also can win... then i wear uniform go there i become mr manhunt le lar...

question round... qns from miss universe 2005 thailand

see wad the bimbos answered

if u were to reccommend a bk to someone... which bk wld u recommend and why?

i wld reccommend blah blah blah bcos it toks abt how one is able to change his own destiny by his strong will... we all are writers of our own stories... however the story ends... we choose it... and we are the only one who can change our own lives... (quite smart ... muz haf caught the rite qns)

tell me abt one of ur failures in life and tell me what u learnt from it
i learnt to never surrender... i joined miss X once and was kicked out in the auditions... now im in the top 5 of miss universe (hao lian)

what can men learn from women

alot
men and women are basically very different physically and in terms of personality(sexist)
men muz learn not to copy from anybody and be themselves because tts what makes them a real men(huh???)

wad is the biggest challenge in ur life?

to stay positive all the time... even in failures... i muz take it in gd stride... im a person who sees a cup half filled instead of half empty... (caught the rite qn also)

tell me abt a difficult problem ur couuntry is facing and wad wld u do to solve it

my country is facing problems politically and economically... pple are too self centred... i feel they shd help each other and DING DING DING times up... (stupid ass... she go and pronounce the politcally and economically until so exaggarated then got no time to answer qn properly... then she stood there and smile) like wad else can they do? all the smiles so fake one...

host : what do u hope for for the world in the future?
tuan: world peace and save the whales

2005-06-08T03:30:00.000-07:00

GEOMATRIA

ok wads it... stumbled upon it recently... erm... history... used to decipher the original bible written in herbrew i think or something... or was written in a code and used geomatria to decipher it into hebrew... god's secret code or something...

ancient greeks called it devil worship... cos greek gods and christian god not the same... but then later they accepted geomatria into their own beliefs... believed tt if any 2 person haf same geomatric values, they will fit toghether very well...

same value=fit together very well
190 and 091 cannot go together
123 and 132 or 071 and 107 can get together well
numbers tt follow maths number patterns considered sacred like ZENG ZHUANG YONG's one

stuff like tt... can find all... apparently pple dun practice much... heres a list of urs

mine 1225
hoon 677
qc 236
wil 2281
lam 794
j lau 1180
marc 2484
marvin 2024
zzy 1357 (this is considered sacred... can u see why... )
ged 237
jion chun 1023
jeremy chee 1441
tuan 1205
melvin 1542
chuan kai 919

ok go buy 4d.... if dun strike... blame on ur stupid fate...

2005-06-01T07:03:00.000-07:00

best of TIMEs

wad BUSH calls KIM JONG II

axis of evil
tyrannical dictator
hellish nightmare
outpost of tyranny
tyrant and dangerous person who starves his people

wad KIM JONG II calls bush

president who worries about others when he cant wipe his own nose
bloodsucker
human scum
immature
philistine
hooligan bereft of any personality
worlds worst fascist dictator
HITLER junior

qn remains... whos more accurate???

next...

...there are, however, side effects to Lee Kuan Yew's social engineering. the new generation of this extremely orderly city has almost forgotten human values and social obligations. young people cant even plan to get married because of the extremely high cost of living. if married, the dont want to start a family, owing to the cost of bringing up a child. the university produces good test takers but not world class techies ready to take up challenging and innovative tasks in todays global environment...

suresh kumar parppurath
bangalor, india

black shit... how to curb rascism like tt... so guangmingzhendaishly criticise sg lar tt black shit... as if the manmohan singh any better like tt... wear the blue turban go every gala event and smile and shake hand... tts all he noes lar... dun even noe how to curb aids... btw india is now the most AIDsy place in the world... beating africa hands down... and they wanna tok abt us like tt...

dumb oral... screw up the eng... early morning come to sch... take cl listening and oral... listening tt time... the fucking chua slut... came in... then got 3 pple late... one soon to be councillor exco member... and 2 prc... the prc late still dare to smile at her... they damn dumb one lar... she glare at them... scold them... scowl at them... still can smile... then fuck them inside the room... juz slam the radio... and then start... then on so loud ants go deaf lar... then still dare to bitch at them... fuck them inside out outside in... make me miss one whole frucking passage lar... the whole class there looking around lar... then she still fart fart fart fart... then later end tt time... wad scold the prc for lying on the table... i tell u ar... the prc really deserve a gd fucking from her.,.. but not at my expense lar... then later go take oral wif a lao ah ma... conversation is literally conversationi... she say smt i say smt... then the reading can lar... wad yi guo2 guo2 i pronounce yi4 kuo4 kuo4.... the ren yun yi yun the yi... adn the guo is shirt pian wif apple the guo... anyhow guess still can get quite accurate... haha

then the eng... wait and wait.. then finally get to it... wanted to shout kia... but became a soft whisper... immediately say sorry and made a fake kia... then the picture so sucky... conversation did so sucky... then engdang dunnoe gawking at edwin heng or wad... face so waxed one... then the amanda yap yap yap... gif marks so early one... juz started only gif marks le... haiya.... haiya haiya haiya...

FAT and OLD sluts... better off sucking cock in hell

2005-05-28T08:47:00.000-07:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

so stupid... contradict itself... wad not stuited for monogamous relationship??? wan me to be bisexual ar??? marry man and woman at same time (cos sg cant marry 2 women but can inofficially marry a man) dumb q&a... so dumb so dumb so dumb...

2005-05-27T23:27:00.000-07:00

though my COPs are collect until testimonial can write no finish tt type...

it really set me thinking...

how come in the really really major events... cat high can never win????for intellectual competitions i mean

look at the maths olympiad... for milleniums cat high has never won anything glorifying... WHY??? not that we dun haf ren cai... not that we cant import them... but why ar? why can we never win??? its damn scary lar... qns tt u can never solve in ur whole entire life pple can solve in 5 secs... qns tt professors doing tt type they can do in 15 secs and even if wrong also the ans damn fucking close lar...

then look at all the science comps... why cant we win either???

humans... languages... all cant win one... wad is cat high made of??? so many essay writing competitions... for el... all put outside staff room... ive been joining the pilot pen one for 3 yrs le... and never hear abt our sch win it at all one lor...

we haf like legions of ren cai lar... the sch shd really acknowledge them more and learn to development on their talents...

tt krishnan pillay damn nice... gossip wif us on his colleagues too... damn funny... we kpkb all the bad things abt the sch... then he say wad... yes i agree.. i will bring it up in the next emc meeting... damn nice... say wad oh its not hak boon... its those 2... as teachers... 50% of them fail badly... as hods... 100% of them fail badly... cannot run sch or their departments properly...

u juz look at the head prefects or student councillor in other schools... wah lao ay... though they can be neighbourhood sch... and the students kns one... u see them u respect them... u see our wain... our wad mengpui... and the other more nicer pple but ham ji bo ji kua simi hum simi pple... dun even dare tok back to the heads... look at me... borrow blazer tt time bitch wif the hod...

our sch really damn the terok... borrow blazer also need to bitch wif hod then can... wad the hell...

in front of 3 heads... one VP one sec... i bitch the chua sok ling...

krishnan pilly ask chua if we can borrow blazer... bala behind me... toking to jion chun... jon toking to chua at first... then pillay ask me ask chua nicely if i can borrow blazer... she turn her head at me then wad... ah... u again ar... then b4 tt pretend never see me... then when see me act shock... FINE... " oh yeah... i'm involved in alot of things"... pillay "wah ur humility is really... hahhahahahah" then the chua... look left look right... see bala smirking away and pillay laffing away... then the jion chun "wah kao ay darryl... stop it lar..." jon lau giggling like a leeeeetle girl...

then the chua sok ling FINALLY understand... "oh self praise is international disgrace" then i wanted to say "yeah i hear tt from you alot of times" but then the pillay tok tok tok... then she act got class... look at jion and say oh u noe the procedure... gd... make the gd sign at him... then go inside hod room wif bala...

u noe ar she ar... so DUMB also wanna come and bitch wif me...lose hands down also dun even noe... need 2 heads one vp and one sec to signal then she noe...

all these juz to borrow a blazer... wah kao ay... go rjc see... the students run it themselves lar... competitions wad students organise themselves one... in our sch...simple things also need to bitch abt the place then can get things done... sian... make me feel as if without my bitching skills... cannot survive in this sch...

2005-05-25T05:33:00.000-07:00

first... prelims...

cl prelim C5
cl prelim 2 D7

proving my point that ur results deprove wif time wif ah meng as ur teacher... end of last yr cl A2...

HOW!!! its the fucking O next week lar... and the wad daily morning intensive chinese remedials... wah lao... really a damn fucking big waste of time....see ah meng trying to motivate the 42 to study... but of cos he sucks lar... and he juz waste the "potential A1s" time... tts wad tt chua slut labled us... how to get an A1 wif tt ah meng... i tell u ar... if i dun get a distinction i definitely wont retake one... see how the school force me... at most they gif me the xie bitch... then maybe i consider...

u noe wad not... this morning walk along corridor to 42... then the xie bitch came up... see her students open mouth and scold... and her face is always tt fucking dogged face... then we were like maybe 7 metres apart... then we walk closer and closer... she going to 46 i going to 42... then she keep looking at me... then i keep looking ahead... then when we about 1 metre apart tt time... she nod her head at me and smile... a damn faint and weak smile... but its damn scary... ITS DAMN SCARY... but its in the morning... i was damn the sotongish... so really didnt feel anything... BUT ITS DAMN SCARY... she practically communicate by scolding... and she smiled at me... omg... why am i such a auntie killer??? OMG....

yeah lar i noe she trying to gif me encouragement to study harder for Cl and also to show her respects to the elders by greeting me... BUT SMILING????????????????

eng prelims sucks lar... did the descriptive... but didnt really describe well... lost my prowess in eng language le... then the compre sucks lar... answerable but damn jian... the summary was the easiest... nothing to summarise... and krishnan not telling anything...

then er still got wad???

oh dota...

everyone quit le... so sian... i not playing for the time being... studying for the cl... but how to... last week b4 the cl... got 2 comps... and absolutely havent studied anything... so if its revision... its fine... but studying? no way lar... and the prelims are so demoralising lar... can FAIL one...fail means dun need take anymore lar...

sry back to dota... yup some pple kp alot... been renning for a long time... then when got issue wif it... i dun keep them under wraps... i tell it off rite to its face... why am i using it??? so i tell... then it says NEVER MIND.... and i heard it 3 times in a month... how nice... then got used to it... now it starts its nonsense... let it be... so much so i actually encouraged pple to continue to "piss" it off even when it makes hell alot of crap... damn dumb lar.. serious...

stop using tt skill lar... damn irritating...
dun use tt skill then the skill is there for wad??? bai mei ar???

stop doing tt lar...
dun do tt then do wad??? wad else can u do wif those skills and ch???

but it noes it and yet it does it still... so leave it lor... gotten used to it...

then er... wad else...

STAR WARTS

hw interesting... why is everyone saying its a nice show???

thing is... its suppose to link 1 and 2 wif 456... so bcos its the only one left to link... it muz really link... and it muz link well... so throughout the whole show... lucas was linking... linking linkink and linking... of cos muz have fight... so fight lar... fighting was nice... NICE only... see epi 2... the fighting more NICEREREREERERERERERERERERER....

and linking and linking and toking and toking... linking means telling story... so tell and tell and tell... did i pay 10 bucks to hear story??? my ass can fart out a nicer story lar... then i slpt for half the show... wad the hell... never in my life i can sleep in a cinema one lar... and this is the first time... and it muz be this show... why???

oh NJC... went there... came back... as usual... missed out on a chance during the audience round to get a prize... at VJC it was a scientific calculator... at Njc is a 5 bucks popular voucher... but still why never answer...

but to compare... njc sucks...i will not go there... vjc is a better choice... both in school campus and school life and school culture and school competition organisation skills... totally sucked lar...

last but sadly least

I FINALLY GOT MY BIKE

finally i got a bike wif full suspension(equipped wif front suspension fork and back suspension bar) micro turbo gear shifters ( dun need to push and push and push anymore... juz turn it like u see the motorcylists) vroom vroom... then got wad spotlight... fron spotlight... like car headlights like tt... damn scary... i think the bat use up damn fast lar...

the sad thing is... the bike cant go slow

2005-05-15T01:27:00.000-07:00

P3
New South Wales maths DISTINCTION

P4
New South Wales maths High Distinction

P5
New South Wales maths High Distinction
Edusave Scholarship

P6
New South Wales maths Distinction
New South Wales science Distinctin
Edusave Scholarship

PSLE
english A
science A
chinese A
maths A*
aggregate 254

Sec 1
Australian Maths Competition junior division Credit

Sec 2
Singapore Mathematical Olympiad junior section SILVER
SMO 19th Team prize
Australian Maths junior division Distinction

Sec 3
SMO senior section BRONZE
Australian Maths intermediate division CREDIT
New South Wales science High Distinction
Great Science Challenge top 16 team finalists(i think they no money so they stopped the comp... or jeffrey again chuck the forms away and never tell us...)
Edusave Scholarship

Sec 4
VJC maths quiz COP
NJC maths quiz COP (havent happen yet... but this is def the result)
RJC current affairs quiz First? Second? Third? forth?(havent happen yet...results unpredictable)
SMO senior section Silver(hopefully)
Australian maths High Distinction (hopefully)

with such lousy results in maths... and science... go which jc for the DIRECT SHIT ADMISSION??? top 5 is sure cant get in one lar... not even qualified to take wadever qualifying test and so on... then the next few i dun need this DSA to enter.... JAE better lor... I juz dun understand why in rosyth tt time no top sec sch come and poach me... i think there are some of the readers who scored better in some of the maths quizes then me lar.... im like so inconsistent one... haiz... apply also find it a waste of time.... then the RJC damn the joker...."shows interest in subject" i haf alot of tt... will they admit me for tt? how they gonna judge tt??? damn the joker lar...

its like this DSA is for the neighbourhood shits who cant get into jc... use this dsa to chop a place one lar...cos they only gd at sports... mei li fa da... hair very nice but inside head hollow... cos the academically inclined ones... dun need this dsa one wad... who are the elitists in academics??? arent they already in the premier schs... and arent they poached already??? crap gov lar... next yr be going to a jc wif 10% teapots... outside nice... inside kong kong...

haiz... stay at chs better lar...

2005-05-03T02:04:00.000-07:00

meet the parents was interesting... pang told my parents tt i got B3... and tt i shd work harder... then came back the test... i got 23/25... highest in classes... and she so cheapskate one... take the qns from guide bk... tt i got... tt i didnt study... cos marcus say dun need to study... so didnt study lor...then anyhow write essay... then got marks... so funny... tian cai jiu shi tian cai

then chung was worse lar... tried to psycho my parents... but i can manipulate them more than her... so failed... but she sure come after me one of these days...

then todays prac... seems like every tues i will pms... ask barney... we always do prac together... i always pms one... juz tt today came back from labour day hols... so not so bad a mood... but really this prac was the worse in like 10 million years... if i in ok mood i wld haf pmsded damn badly but today damn weird... was in so gd a mood... even in stupid jokes i also can laff... usually i dun laff much... damn funny today laff so much... shd get oscar...

the stupid prac... do 3 times still do wrong... in the end draw the graph first then make the readings.... and then... graph gradient wrong... fuck lar... juz handed up... cant be bothered le...

chem prac so simple... so many co2... then the h2 gas i didnt write gas name... shit...really... if im in bad mood or ok mood... shda really pmsded on the spot lar... next week... next week

2005-05-03T01:58:00.000-07:00

well the cl prelim was screwed to a certain extent... cos there be still hope for a B3... ciyu is all sec 3... and some how i know all... miraculous cos normally is i know only 1... then the zao ju is worse... sec 4... and goh hock meng never teach one... and i didnt really studied them... so only knew half... and the zuo wen... the bao zhang bao dao... from past 3 yrs exp... if i do the topic wif hp inside... i always fail... so i did the molest girl on mrt one... and sure fail lar... cos i cant describe a molest scene in cl well... then the zhong he tian kong needed alot of tikamation and aggaration... but the hardest was still the xu ci... cant even do one...more tikamation and agaration... but zuo wen can lar... juz tt last qn was dumb and the describe phrase also cannot read one... so basically its a at most B3... so they better moderate...

2005-04-18T04:17:00.000-07:00

napfa was f u n lar... fun enuff to laff over my pms... my bf... my sf... my wadever lar...

at first do the shuttle... do outside the lecture theatre there... first try... lillian say go... i do front split... 2nd try... go... i lag 2 sec... then run and over shoot... then i juz pms on the spot...i was like shouting like fuck lar... i was like so prepared to shoot 2 letters... one to MOE... the other to Straits Times Forum... then i can cut it out... laminate and then do a follow up... DWIT... i was really like damn pissed lor... tell the goh kee yong... he dun wan change venue.. then the poor lillian bo bian lor... hod wad... muz listen... then i was like even worse lar... i was like if can like tt then i be hod suan le... at least later they changed the venue to pri sch hall... then my bitch fit subsided....

results in accordance to lousiness

jump... 235... one more cm to B... fucking kee yong...
stretch... 51... juz A... ian was an ass...
chin up... 10... one more than a A... kee yong also damn irritating...
shuttle... POWER 9.8... 0.3 less than the A... i bully the xiao mei mei...
then sit up... 59... the type at the start 1 sec do 3 tt type lor...then at the end... slowly retard... so ave its like 1 sec do 1... then last sec rest lor...

but no use wad... 2.4 still D... dammit... and then the jump... tmd... one cm nia... fucking kee yong lar... cannot retake one... say if u can do it... u can do it... if cannot.. then suan le... but we muz do wadever it takes rite??? asshole...dun let us retake one... fucker lar... nvm heck le lar... girls are more impressed wif the chin up... wed muz bia until at most 12 mins.... at least muz get gold b4 leaving cat high... been silver and bronze for past years... always the 2.4...

2005-04-13T07:05:00.000-07:00

today is a damn pissifying day... so fucked up i almost pms... damn on the verge of doing so...

first thing...

sun so hot... run 2.4... run until damn sick... so hot... didnt hit 12

then release at 950... cos i no bio...go lib buy pen... PRI SCH recess... dammit.... fucking midgets... flock there for wad... walk walk bang bang... damn fucked up... go to cashier wanna pay... stupid boy... no money take so many items... then maths fail.... wanted to buy marker.... sticker... 2 haribos... altogether 4 +++... he only had 2 plus... cannot pay... took away a haribo... =.= ... then took away another haribo... =.=... then finally decided to take away sticker... then abt my turn he rush back... say got money to buy haribo... then cut my queue liek tt lar...

go canteen eat... tmd didnt noe it was lower sec recess... queues so long... and i didnt noe why i queued... then pri sch recess and lower sec recess... fucking hell... so noisy until i headache...

then i go play hp... then the 20 mins interval btwn the recesses... the rest come down and were eating... so i go pri canteen... tmd kenna scolded by their dm... so fucked up.... he shout also cannot hear one... hes stupid voice so muffled... shout also so muffled... hear wad shit... then scold me for ignoring im... fucked up man... doesnt he noe tt he cant shout properly... cant shout properly dun shout lar... then i explain to him im dismissed le... then he diao me even more... say i tok back... if i was pmsing at tt time...i took my water bottle and jabbed it up his ass... think he taller than me he gd ar... i can shout better...so fucked up... as if the sec side dm not bad enuff...

then go the vjc... smooth sailing... except journey too long... wait wait wait... damn sian

reach le... got lost...WOW...

then cai jia shen never come... wow^2... then came late...

then our guide or facilitator... wadever lar... came to us... quite chio... but speak eng like from neighbourhood one... bring us inside to our seats... tmd... right below air con...fine ren... already renablity damn tested le...

took test... wah lao... fucking hell... fuck peck eng man... told me A LEVEL MATHS... dammit man... was A LEVEL MATHS OLYMPIAD.... shit her lar...make me prepare the wrong things... then i prepare the wkshts also useless le lor... fuck her man...

then go the tour... stupid tour... as if i wanna go vjc like tt... then make us go inside wad stupid maths room... tmd... as if their exhibition damn interesting like tt...

then go for wad GRAPHIC CALCULATOR talk... the lecturer say wad... new syllabus maths for A level... all students taking maths... need to haf one... how much one??? 200 +++ yay

then the stupid tok... take so long... then go eat refreshments...FOOD TIME... bee hoon worse than sch... so i eat until damn jelak... the chicken wings cold cold one... the one i ate inside raw... the fishball so salty... i think they use salted fish to make the fish ball... bite one time... ur mouth damn urgh.... only thing nice was the cream puff... cos it was tasteless

then found out the chio bu tt me and jigs were going gaga over was PRC... *puke puke puke puke

then go back... hear results... then found out zzk and yanghebo left... WOW... then go inside... they announcing results... make me damn worried.... wad if they called us... luckily they didnt...

then got wad individual round... was fine but took too long... then team round... damn tough the qns... then the AUDIENCE round

fucked up man... i clda ans one of the qn and gotten a prize... but i didnt... dammit... and i cld also ans 2 of the other qns... but those qns not for my area to ans... dammit... prize was a scientific calculater... 20+ free bucks didnt take... dammit

then look at centre at hosts... then keep seeing tt chio bu... dammit.. dammit... dammit... dammit... i dun mind being ashton kutcher... cos shes demi moore square...

and the whole competition dominated by a particular national... and no chio bu...except for miss china universe...

then got one qn... 2 ans... the RI guy gave one compere let him try for the 2nd ans... then he look at his teammates from the finals... the teammate made rabbit ears... he said 2... and got correct... fuck... FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK... why is RI so fucking fucked up... in front of so many pple and newspaper pple... they blantently cheated...

then in the end... 1st to 4th individual prize they won... 1st team prize they also won... damn fuckedup... then i wanted to leave... then rush outside... RAIN...

me and jigs never bring brelly...dammit... then the scholars took a cab home...=.=

then run to bus stop... anyhow took bus... then took mrt... then came home...

dota was worse... lag lag lag...then took turns to lag... those 2... infamous 2... then became so imba... then lost... but i highest score

i tot dota can make me feel better from the days pissifications... but made me worse... wanted it to make me feel better but game so imba and lagged... then cannot play at all... omg...

then no half day tmr some more... i dun care... vjc one i muz get half day... or sch lose even worse... even wif me in team... lose... maybe top 10... but w/o me... i think not even qualified to join tourney lar...

shit lar... whole day do maths olympiad qns... then come home so tired... then still got so many hw... omg...

tmr i think i wld be damn pmsatious le....

still cant believe tt chio bu is prc... goddamit

2005-04-02T07:21:00.000-08:00

today dunnoe why... juz blew it wif them again...damn sian now... still deciding whether to wake up early and go leow not... i juz go play wif my fren... my best little fren

damn nice to stroke... stroke and it gives a nice vib
firm and taut... wif a hole in the centre...
my only consolation in times of demise
and it will last me my lifetime
sometimes i screw it...
sometimes awhile... sometimes longer...

if only... if only...

2005-03-31T05:36:00.000-08:00

i really cant stand my parents anymore... one more time i will really explode...

been thinking these few days... its just kinda weird... in fact its damn weird...

its like im damn happy when im in the company of pple of the stellar conglomeration 2703... provided i was ok at the start... then go mix wif them and continue getting better...

realised nowadays... and decided to think abt the real definition of friends... they just to share joy?

if i go up to u wif a sombre face... will u still be as u are? i noe we haf a tradition of suaning each other and trying to put one another down... but is it proper to continue putting one down when he's down? its damn weird... i've surpassed blowing my top... even during tt relapse... it didnt serve any purpose... i cant do so anymore

then i thought... there are others... though we dun interact tt much... but when i tok to them abt how im feeling and all... somehow i feel better... recently... i toked to one guy... at first damn uuurgh and all... then tok to him le... then suddenly felt like studying chinese... but u noe me... insomnia and all... and tt time already 1++... so awhile only and i went to bed...

at least i felt better for awhile...

but... damn weird... everyday... at least for nowadays... i come to sch tired and all... and i dun feel gd nowadays... i see u i gif u a reluctant smile... at least i bother to... but hey... if u start to suan me and all... maybe i dun show it... i cant anymore... but it hurts... especially nowadays...

but then... when i meet others... they smile back... they wave...

then more weird... if they have problems... they wld share wif me... and i will try to cheer them up when they are down... and help them in wadever way i can... ask me and i will help... anytime...

its damn weird... set me thinking... wad am i treated as? am i taken for granted? i value friendship more than any other thing... if its not worth valueing... maybe i shd gif it to others...

its like i cant be wif 2703 when im sad... its worse... maybe its because i put on too gd an act or wadever... but the fact remains... it isnt rite... i really hate my class... i really loathe coming to sch... and it sucks to put up wif the crap i get to put up wif a day... when pple cannot exercise self constraint and understanding...

its like... if u throw a punch at me... definitely i will punch u back at least 2 times... recently there was a pencil case thrown at my face... for i dunnoe wad naive reasons the thrower had... and i didnt even do anything... retribution better work...

its like im turning into more of a pessimist every day... and then today chung again... want to collect edusave form... i wan pay money... gif monitor... say dun pay first... later ask chung... then he didnt ask... then chung angry again lar... for nothing will kenna scolded again...

is tt how the world works now?

i think i noe why i have insomnia... dun think any psychologist can cure it... time... it calls for greater ponderance...

and wad a nice time to have such mood swings... this yr of all yrs... this time of all times... 28 days left to prelims... 58 days to cl o level...

time... if only i had a nice fossil watch... the chronograph gunmetal black degrade ones... with the titanium metal strap... damn nice... but farmers shd juz eat their peas...

dun even think i wld swing back... i recently had this premonition... next yr at march... everyone will come to me and flaunt their achievements... some will thank me for helping them... and i will get lousy scores and i be going to a poly... i really cant get into the mood for anything at all...

its damn weird...

listen to this story....

group of kids... always meet at playground every evening... can play many games rite? usually play 2 games... hide and seek and catching... but one of them prefers catching more strongly to the other... for a few days they say play H&S... so fine play lar... next few days also say play H&S... this kid sian le... say he go jogging instead... and subsequent days... he will without fail ask if they wld like catching for a change... and he wld end up jogging...

now this kid is a super kid... usually kids will throw tantrums and cry like a baby...

simple analogy... dun tok abt any naivite... tok abt the group of kids... do they treat this one kid as their friend? do they spare a thought for him? u mean they cant play H&S from mon til sat and play catching on sun? damn weird...

i dun hold any grudges on anyone for doing wad they do... in this instance tt is... but the thought of the reality... wads really happening... wads really signified... doesnt tt seem like a broomstick jabbed up ones ass? literally... and the broomstick cant be pulled out...

wadever it is... juz do well for ur o levels... well knowing i be happy and proud of u all... and it too doesnt matter if i can get better results and didnt or wldnt... cos my mind is prob exposed to too much radiation for tt matter to think straight nowadays...

2005-03-29T06:08:00.000-08:00

ok i havent been seriously and i do mean seriously blogging for like eternity

thing is... i juz cant get into the mood of writing... of expressing my thoughts in words... thus so... the decline in my standard of english... such incompetecy... cant live up to my previous fame anymore... and i certainly cant be writing 2 essays a term rite?

not just that... in fact everything... every subject... wad am i doing? why do i slack so much? just feel that i have lost all interests in studies

when i get the mood... when the interest is back... then maybe u will see the results sore... man i tot i wld write long... okok tok abt my life... wad has happened...

my com arrived on sat... been dling songs naruto since then... jay's songs are damn nice... type which u can listen over and over again... but i think im over doing it... kinda getting sian le... and the naruto... damn ironic... such a gd com to dl... but no one who has it is always online... so at certain times of the day... the dling is like halted...

then songs... wad songs shd i dl? gimme a list... i complete it in a day

and this com... no word... no ppt... no microsoft office... was looking forward to printing all my stuff tts hoarded in my thumb drive... cos old com cant access tt... wad u expect of an 8 yr old crap metal... w/o me to upgrade it all the time... i dun think i cld even play W3 lor... now got this com... shd be in full swing once i get all the technical part done...

haiz

these few days... where do i start?

motivational workshop... o.0 wad was gd abt it ar? oh the orange squash was nice at first... the paos were okay... the fruit cake was too buttery... and i dun think i remembered anything else... pure crap and more crap... i was motivated to do worse for the sch... expect me to slack more... and expect my conscience to continue stabbing me...

actually there's a pain worse than tt... worse than external physical pain... im sure none of u haf this... a pain in the backBONE... the type where ur backbone suddenly has this continuous slight pain... juz slightly so its bearable... but enough to make u feel EEEEEEEEEEEEEEURGh... i mean a gash or a cut can heal and no longer pains... a headache i get one at least once a week... lack of slp... is nothing compared to tt...

yes diverge... tok more...

ok... then recently... peck eng say got njc vjc competition... make me in charge of both... fine... jc maths nia... hard meh? then i think im more or less taken out of the interschool science quiz thing... but how abt the Great Science Challenge... fuck jeffrey lar... like i care... i haf enough things on my shoulders le...

nice of chung to support me wif her ever trememdous load of hw... and oh how nice... the cl prelim is in exactly 30 days... and goh hock meng is SSSSSSOOOO hardworking... ifeelsomotivatedtodowellenoughtopass... lemme put in the punctuations... i feel so motivated to do... well... enough to pass... haiya im screwing up my studies lar...

recently chat wif an old fren... its like damn ironic lar... last yr i did study but not say alot... and i did get gd results... and last yr... everyone was playing like fuck... and they now are mugging like fuck... and wad am i doing this yr... making up for my lost slack? and theres noone to slack wif me... its like tok wif them... awhile nia say wanna go study le... then they are like OI DARRYL... Sec 4 leh... muz bia... so... i told my old fren tt i was doing the inverse of wad i was doing last yr... and he was like so damn shocked lor... he was like... does it mean its bad? seriously speaking... does it? so wad if i slack... i can still get gd results u noe... well i lied... i havent mastered tt skill which pple like wilson has... never mug... never bring calculator and can get an almost perfect score... i am trying to master tt this yr... but seriously dunnoe how he does it...

damn sian this yr... my life is getting more despondant as it goes on... i mean i study less... but not so significantly... cos i really dont study much... so the more time i haf... shd be used to make myself more happy... but am i really? i mean... i am damn fucking happy when im wif my 2703 brethren... and time passes damn fucking faster when im wif them... so much for happiness... i dun get tt from my family so enjoy urs if u do...

2005-03-11T22:43:00.000-08:00

one day... ah boy come home from school... he walk past his dai gor room and heard dai gor shout... OH MY MOTHER FUCKING GOD... then ah boy tio stun... mummy fucking god??? he immediately ran as fast as he could to his mom's room... once there... he silently and stealthily open the door abit and peeked inside... incidentally... his mother was fucking somebody... the handy family plumber... both were romping happily on the bed and making alot of weird animal sounds... upon seeing and hearing all that... ah boy push open the door and shouted... OH MY GOD... IS THAT YOU???

then mummy say

Now hush little baby don’t you cry
Everythings gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little bady
I told ya, noone's here to hold ya
Through the night
I know mom's fucking here right now and we don’t know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise, Mama’s gonna be alright

nothing much to blog lar... dota too much le... this term results really sucks... improve from 6 to 14... tts like 133% increase... YAY?

then everyone 6 lar... 7 lar...8 lar...9 lar...

shd i start putting my zainess to gd use and score for term 2... maybe june then start lar...who noes...

+Sl@cKeRs Un10N+
2703 sl@ck on 4ever

2005-02-25T03:52:00.000-08:00

i think i shd make the front part photocopiable... since some pieces of shit requested so

well... its fun when u haf a companion to go home with... and better if he can accompany u to...say... shopping... or wadever lar... so we went to cold storage to buy some snacks... say quite nice...order this and that... so when it was my turn... (well knowing my zest for gd food) er...auntie ar... gei wo zhe ge... zhe ge... zhe ge he na ge... kenna whack lar... then go popular... see bks a while... apparently no new bks...and all the old ones either suck... or the gd old ones bought le... so see story bks awhile tok cock...then go home...

a few days later... go north point....eat one ice cream... i ordered vanilla and chocolate... got lychee and chocolate...eat already then go home...how lame...

note tt part was not the usual way and form of writing i engage in...

okay so... these few days chung not happy...shall i criticise pple or shall i juz shaddup... if i dun criticise...i haf nothing to write le rite???

first... i love algorithms... decode this if u can... echh,w

tts a fucker if u succeeded... firstly...lemme tel everyone abt my predicament

first...got tt stupiak bklet rite... regarding the cost of o level and all tt... inside write cannot take 10 subjects if not GEP...if want need special permission... tio... i taking 10 subjects... how??? muz drop one isit??? if so...and i choose to drop bio...who do i approach first... dun say i never ask chung...i told her abt this thingy long ago... she say...juz clear all subjects lar... tts all... never say last yr or this yr... ok...so then i went to find jeff... like 2 weeks ago... i went to find chung shortly after we got tt bklet...like months ago... jeff juz refer to fu sek jung...no comments wadsoever...say he wad small fry...how very true... lets hope a shark comes along and shits on him... fu say...regarding 10 subjects...whether can take or not... check with llp... cos he in charge of o level thingy for our sch... go to llp... he explain gov say cannot take 10 subjects... if want... need to appeal... if want ot appeal... need to haf 10 distinctions for last yr... so i went back to fu sek jung... then she say... submit letter can le...

then chung found out... tts it... got so pissed...decided to announce she getting pms... and all tt crap... wanted to explain things to her... but she so pissed tt she didnt even wanted to listen to reasoning... so fine...tao each other lar...u tao me...i tao u... until now still like tt...

its a miracle i havent been much profane... then these few days scold scold scold lar... even she scold the sec 3s... she made them stand outside staff room in one row... senang deri position in the sun... then she one person stand there and shout... twice.... 2 classes i suppose... came back from recess saw one time... last period saw another time...

oh... 4-10... she wants ur file... this is a jarringly clear pre-emptive warning... i guess history wont repeat itself...

then another person... fark lar... who is he to drop 2 subjects... tmd...i am forced to drop tts why i m dropping lar...he isnt...wad no time...fark lar... top 10 in cat high...if dun get 9 A1... who is??? then wad ...dare to openly pang seh 2703 pple... his supposedly own skin and hair

last yr.... farking ardently insist tt we shd hold our chalet at some chalet...say darn gd lar... then in the end go there...fucking shit lar... worse thing...bk le...he then say he cant go... then still dare to ask for refund...

this week... supposed to go leow... then he suggested to watch show... then got no show to watch...even after checking with like 4 cinemas... so fine...at least then follow us go pass time...since we are so damn late for lessons... until the next one starts... tmd... he go home...

for fucks sake...if u want to pang seh pple... dun destroy and disrupt their schedule

even when he had a lousy chalet...we made the best out of it... we went home happy and all... even when we had to pass time... for not being able to catch any movie... we went ot play lan...

i am trying to say tt he is soooooooooooooo redundant tt we can do without him...

tmd... when going home tt time... still dare to say...its ok wad...one person (not happy) only...is his naivete tt humongous tt he will think tt so... for fucks sake... other pple also feel tt way... juz tt they WERE only in the same class with him for 2 yrs...me 4... number 2... the other pple are very much nice... they wont insult u straight in ur face... so unlike me... do they really not feel pissed with him???

why do u learn so much martial arts??? do they really come in tt handy when u decide to backstab ur frens???

no one came to this earth to be loved... neither shd u leave being loathed